XonethousandtearsX

2011-09-18T18:27:00.010+08:00

oh siapakah di sana,
baju biru warna muda
pakai kacamata,
oh.. bergaya..
(hehehehe..)

Berjalan seorang saja,
Melambai ke sini sana,
Siapakah yang punya
Sungguh lawa...

Ku panggil dia ketawa,
Terus rapat kepadanya,
Ku tanya bolehkah
Jalan sama..

Dia kata marilah..
Wahai si TYRA,
Tidak lengah aku pun jalan
Sama...

Apparently, this is my sec0nd raya with him. alhamdulilah.. The longest relationship ive ever had. so yeah, we only started the outings at 2pm. and what is the nerve anyways..? my heels. it was a t0rture of being a lady like. aiyayaya. the true fact, w0man always grumble and im one of them. sheesh. :D

and tell me, what is raya without a full c0mplete set of suit. especially for the guys, they had s0ngk0k f0rmed beautifully on their heads, include with the designated bro0ch, aiseyman.. melts. and again, "oh siapakah di sana, baju biru warna muda.."

my ten minutes F1 driver. hee. :D

as a result, raya is all about PEACE..!

and s0, h0w's y0ur raya s0 far...?

2011-09-07T19:51:00.004+08:00

Hello earthlings, im back in bl0gging. hell yeah. ive n0t update f0r alm0st 6 m0nths..? this is crazy. 6 months of spending my time in paradigm and ive dunch have the time f0r this. ive g0t s0me free times in the office t0 mentally update, but ive spent my times on just a FACEBOOK and y0utube. :)

but life is fair, i still have MCs t0 rely on. and that happens f0r t0day. hahaha. :)

oh, ive spent my raya awes0mely this year with my l0vely families. i feel much blessful alth0ugh there was a lil' bit of hiccups that sho0k us d0wn. shall n0t elab0rate m0re. what happen had happened. i will just pray f0r the best.

this year, ive had my lebaran in paradigm to0. aww man.. h0w times flew fast. ending attachment in late september so0n, and many things happened right in fr0nt of my very own eyes as which i d0nt expect it t0 happen. and this sweet lady d0wn here is one of my c0lleague.
say hello. i appreciate w0rking with her and n0t f0rgetting the others in paradigm. :)

and of c0urse,with my sweet b0yfriend..! im blessful f0r having him in my life. he was my everything. he's the man. thank y0u f0r t0lerating with my n0nsense alth0ugh im a lil' playful and naughty at times. he ad0res me n0 matter h0w ugly i l0ok like.

syawal is already here. i n0e this is quite late, but i wanna wish everyone a
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI..! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. Kalau salah atau silap, ampun maaf dipinta.. :)

2011-03-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

So why? TRY HARDER.

This carries a powerful meaning, but s0meh0w, action speak l0uder than w0rds. It is really hard to stay p0sitive. Thats h0w i realized its harder sitting in front of the mirror and stare straight into my eyes, h0ping that i will be str0ng like ive just strike a l0ttery.

i hung my head l0w. i am ashamed of myself. no, this must be av0id. why cant y0u pe0ple understand..? i was like fighting this expectati0n ALONE. eh wait, im n0t al0ne. ALLAH is there with me. but why..? why cant i even face up the sky..? sigh.

tyra.♥

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2011-03-13T21:39:00.006+08:00

s0metimes, h0w i wish i am go0d at w0rds. there are a th0usand of w0rds i wanted t0 j0t it d0wn, but s0meh0w ive failed.

every one have t0 m0ve on one day. we g0t t0 adapt with the new envir0nment that enter int0 our lifes daily. i dislike m0ving on, but still, i g0t t0 accept the fact that im living in a new envir0nment.

can we ever turn back the time..?

1. FARHAANA

where we can really laugh out l0ud whenever theres a j0ke strike..? be it y0u or
me where we can start off our c0nversati0n.

we shared alm0st everything. heart t0 heart matters. and im always y0ur alarm cl0ck every m0rning. making my way t0 y0ur bus st0p just t0 g0 t0 scho0l t0gether with y0u is my biggest sacrifice f0r y0u. everything i d0, i will always be with y0u.. be it study in the bus, taking license etc. we were inseparable.

2. SAFRINAH

Thank y0u f0r rec0mmend-ing me that sakura j0b. i appreciate it. nevertheless, it was such a great pay-off..! it ease up my burden in financial. without this extra j0b, i dunn0 where i am t0day.. y0u made me learnt h0w t0 be patience in that kind of industry. this way, ive been to0 hardw0rking be it in j0b and study. once again, thank y0u.

indeed, i miss w0rking b0th h0tel and sakura with y0u..

3. YINGSI

one crazy m0nkey..! a n0isy girl, but cheerful and bubbly always. a pretty girl wh0m i really l0ve being with her. when want t0 g0 batam find our undergarments again. she's sp0rty. thats why i like d0ing adventur0us m0ment with her. :))

5. ADAWIYAH

i remember teaching her OFA, and she sc0res well in it. even better than mine. frankly, i am pr0ud of her..! and i wish t0 help her in the subject of which she is weak at. the bad thing is that, it is already the end of year examinati0n. and that is the only way i can help her. if time were t0 turn back, i will sincerely help her in all of the examinati0n and make sure she sc0res well in it..!

and that the same g0es t0 farhaana..! i remember she feel like giving up in her studies in nitec days, and i t0ld her this, "pr0mise me, that y0u and i will g0 higher nitec t0gether.." and we made it..! im to0 happy that we actually make the sacrifice t0 let her be in my class!!!

time flies s0 fast, and finally we realized that we had gr0wn up. but s0meday, i pray t0 g0d that we will meet s0meday. insyaallah.. and deep d0wn, i miss y0u girls.

n0w, i really wish that i will never gr0w up, but this is reality that we need t0 face.

2011-02-24T13:56:00.005+08:00

alhamdullilah. my exams were over. even th0ugh i am still devastated ab0ut it as this term test is damn to0 hard.. but nevertheless, i shall n0t br0ad ab0ut it. ive kn0w that ive put in s0me eff0rt and i believe i can d0 it. ya allah ya tuhanku, please hear my prayers. only y0u wh0 can help me. amin. i am just thankful t0 ALLAH that i can make it thru this difficult j0urney of mine and i h0pe t0 c0ntinue with it till the end of time. and pe0ple, i seek y0ur help t0 create s0me d0as f0r me. may allah reward all y0ur d0as..!
AMIN.

n0w, i feel bad f0r n0t having the time t0 c0mmunicate with allah. red light, please finish so0n. i wanted t0 c0mmunicate with him in every single of my prayers like h0w i n0rmally d0 in my daily r0utine. but whatever it is, i still talk t0 him like he was my very own bestfriend. i cry, i smile and he kn0w whats in me. only HE, understand me.

my attachment will be starting so0n. f0r 6m0nths. and i prayed that my c0mpany will welc0me me with pleasure and let me w0rk with c0mf0rt and suits me t0 be in their c0mpany. insyaallah.
bismillah i shall say, t0 a new beginning so0n.

thank y0u f0r the day. :) especially after l0ng since we had our last date.
p/s I LOVE YOU.

im w0rking so0n, and i h0pe t0day is a great day t0 start with. amin.

with l0ve, tyra

2011-01-21T23:31:00.003+08:00

a few m0re h0urs and i cant simply wait..! can i n0t wink my eyes at all..? i am s0 sex-xited t0 eventually let myself to sleep. ive c0unt the sheeps, ive sang the bintang kecil s0ng and i did everything that i usually make myself to sleep, but i think, it is a missi0n that ive FAILED. lols.

theres a bubbly cl0ud that kept c0ming out fr0m my mind n0n-st0p. it kept on blo0ping "tanj0ng piai.. tanj0ng piai.. tanj0ng piai..."

its time f0r me to ease my burden. thru all the shits ive went thr0ugh, i believed that ive learned fr0m experiences. be it go0d or bad, i appreciate it sincerely. i d0nt care what others had t0 say of me c0z i believe i had n0 guilt and i believe in my one and only one. ALLAH. he's the greatest gift that ive ever had. with0ut HIM, i swear i w0nt be breathing alively in this EARTH anym0re.

f0r as i n0e, n0 one is perfect. everyone do make mistake. this way, we g0t t0 be f0rgiving instead of being angry, of where all the shaytans make a l0t of n0ise on y0u. i believe that im a true believer and i prayed to allah swt each and single day, to st0p this evil whisperings int0 c0ming ont0 me. amin.

i cant wait t0 de-stress myself and at the same time, having FUN..! wee~!!!!

thank y0u ALLAH swt. im all smile.. :)))))

2010-12-27T12:16:00.003+08:00

im very tired. ive been sleeping irregularly during these h0lidays, which i d0nt understand why. been waking up at weird times and felt sleepy whenever im usually active.

alhamdulillah. our 1st year anniversary g0es on smo0thly. alth0ugh it was simple, i f0und it prettily splendid..! i just simply l0ve it. what matters is the LOVE that we had f0r each other. i believe that our l0ve f0r each other is to0 PURE. ive never felt this way bef0re. it was my first. the first time being in a relati0nship of one year and i just simply ad0res it.

i am n0t h0ping, but prayed the best f0r us. i prayed that we will be able t0 sail al0ng this j0urney of life t0gether till the end of time. baby, I LOVE YOU. thanks f0r sh0wering me with l0ve. thank y0u f0r everything.
SABAR. IKHLAS. REDHA. (Patience. Sincere. Acceptance)

sshh.. ive n0t had my bath ever since i did my h0useh0ld ch0res just n0w. hehehe. i shall st0p n0w and c0ntinue what i have t0 d0 bef0re heading t0 w0rk.
oh allah, please make my day a GREAT ones t0day. Amin.!

with l0ve, tyra ♥

2010-12-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

h0lla im back..! s0rry f0r the missing in acti0n. its n0t that im leaving my bl0g astray. it just that ive g0t n0 ultimate time t0 update ab0ut it. ive been leaving myself stress up with no reas0n. my mo0d swings very heavy. i simply cant c0ntr0l already. it already hit up t0 the target of my swing. this mo0d of mine had overreacted. pfft -_- (FML). pard0n me f0r the language c0z i can n0 l0nger h0ld it back. the h0lidays were n0t d0ing me a fav0ur. :(

something is wr0ng in my life, and i d0nt kn0w what it is.

i feel sick, tired and em0ti0nally exhausted. i can only s0urce out my pain t0 ALLAH and t0 HIM, i am thankful that i am still breathing alively. in fact, i am thankful t0 HIM, f0r i kn0w that life is n0t PERFECT.

i believe that this is the pr0cess of gr0wing up and i am SPECIAL. i am SPECIAL c0z what im g0ing thr0ugh is n0thing like anyone.

and jyeah, i cant wait f0r the upc0ming agenda..! this tym r0und, i need it t0 be special c0z it was "the date" t0 remember..! i cant simply wait. baby, i l0ve y0u. thank y0u f0r being t0lerance with me. :)

2010-12-14T13:32:00.002+08:00

h0rrible MST really haunt me, i swear. last friday, when i wanted just much t0 rest my head after all the h0rrible exams, i just think that i cant even have the time t0 rest my head. but alhamdullilah.. n0thing t0 say much. i w0uld just pr0bably accept whats happening in life. believe in ALLAH. and i will. i shall accept whatever HE gives. May Allah guide me please. AMIN.

again and again, h0lidays are n0t h0liday. i still have t0 c0pe up with my tw0 j0bs and theres still s0 many pr0jects tt are still left unDONE.. :((

ok then. i just received my acc0unt assignment. till here then. up t0 n0w, still cant balance.. :((

after w0rk, i have t0 check it again. s0mething wr0ng with the ledger.

2010-11-14T18:57:00.002+08:00

damn y0u acc0unting. y0u really made my head spin and spin. i think i will nearly c0llapse if it was really happening. and if that happen, i sw0re, i w0uld never want t0 wake up again.. unless if there is n0 m0re acc0unting in this w0rld, only then i will wake up again. oh man..! please help me. its b0ils up my pressure..!

i d0nt even n0e if i can really c0pe this term. all the m0dules based on mem0rising. s0 pressurized..! i think i can nearly suffer due t0 c0ntused brain. lols. my brain cant functi0n well n0w. ya allah ya tuhanku, ku m0h0n d0a dari mu ya allah, tabahkan lah diriku ini ya allah.. amin.

allright, i have n0 idea of what picture t0 p0st. i think, this will d0. i pr0mised t0 take m0re picture of us, s0 that i can p0st in my bl0g. hehehe. just j0king. :P

f0r the past few days, f0r nearly 2-3 weeks or can i say it had been a m0nth. life was never easy f0r me. i g0t sick easily and my b0dy is always the weakest link. next, tw0 of my aunts had passed away recently. again, i have t0 summ0n it t0 fate. perhaps, g0d l0ve them m0re. apparently, my uncle n0w is in the emergency unit. n0w pe0ple, i seek y0ur help t0 make s0me DOAs f0r my uncle. h0pefully, he w0uld able t0 pull thr0ugh. amin.

i shant say much n0w. im trying my best t0 d0 what i can d0. i knew im n0t al0ne, f0r ALLAH is always with me. im thankful en0ugh. :)

2010-11-02T21:50:00.013+08:00

the past few days, appetite and sleep were no go0d. ive always skip breakfast and only have a light lunch. my appetite is bec0ming w0rst which i did n0t even n0e why. at the same time, what i w0rried m0st n0w is my aunt. up till n0w, she had n0t waken up fr0m her great sleep. s0 near yet s0 far. buat mase gini, ira hanya mampu d0akan yang terbaik. kerana hanya tuhan yang lebih KUASA.

i am trying s0 hard t0 bear with the pr0blems that ive been facing. like what my b0yfie said, setiap kejadian mesti ade hikmahnye. yang penting, bersabarlah. :))

Saturday was awes0me. ive spend quantity of time at sent0sa with b0yfriend and his family. i cant describe h0w much i miss him alth0ugh it had been ages we had n0t spent s0me time with each other. the only time we can meet is, when theres such outing called "family gathering".

I think i must start wearing dress fr0m n0w onwards.

c0z i think i lo0k great in it. LOLS.

the behind pers0n, 'tak perlu eh!" haha

one c0mplete siblings.

i l0ve the way im being carried. :)

abang ayus, y0ur head g0t erupti0n..! lols.

nice face dude..!

lets pray f0r the dead.

They were g0ne.

the spo0ky effect.

halloween was great even th0ugh we just met a few "gh0sts", we d0 enj0y them scaring us. they left us feeling to0 breatheless as a result.. which was then we headed t0 marina barrage next. the m0ment we stepped there, we c0uld feel the fresh breeze bl0wing onto us. and b0yfie started to have a sweet c0nversati0n with me, with the way of h0w he first purp0se t0 me. SWEET..! :))

we ended the day with a tiring face but yet fun. :)

2010-10-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

i am awfully quiet t0day. and n0w, i cant bl0g cleverly. i bet t0night i am g0ing t0 cry t0 sleep. i just cant understand why theres still unc0mf0rtable feeling in my heart.

i believe i am still str0ng. i believe i can d0 it. dear ALLAH, please give me the strength t0 carry on in my life.. amin.

2010-09-30T22:16:00.002+08:00

ive finally watch "lagenda budak setan". it was a great sh0w, full of em0ti0n. happy, sad, anger, t0uched etc.

things will get better in time. insyaallah. please h0ld on baby. c0z i l0ve y0u. :)

2010-09-22T15:35:00.003+08:00

just a sh0rt upadate here. im heading off t0 w0rk so0n. b0yfriend raya-ing my hse like macam nak dtg akad nikah. hahaha. anyho0ts, i l0ve y0u my mach0 b0yfriend!

Results, please be go0d. ya allah ya tuhan ku, berikan lah aku semangat untuk menabahi kesemuanya. AMIN.

2010-09-19T22:34:00.006+08:00

when i was just a lil't0ddler, i just simply l0ve raya. mainly, its because of getting l0ts of green packets and the fact is, i cant st0p visiting ppl's h0use just t0 get that green packets. n0w, i am already 20. ive started to realize that syawal is much m0re meaningful t0 me. getting a green packet f0r me is very c0mm0n. supp0singly, i was n0t supp0se t0 receive any, but still, i had ppl giving it t0 me. s0me misto0k me with my y0unger sister. *mind y0u, she is taller than me. tts why. LOLs. but wateva it is, alhamdullilah. rezeki tidak seharusnye t0lak. :)

this is the first time ive tried to control my tears while seeking f0rgiveness within my own family. ive started to laugh my ass off as a result. i kn0w im n0t perfect, s0 this is the only chance where i can actually seek a GREAT f0rgiveness fr0m everyone.

ok, s0 here i am,

Saye, Nurul Athirah, dikenali sbg tyra, ingin menyusun 10 jari saye, mem0h0n
ampun dan maaf. i am very very very s0rry if i ever did any of y0u wr0ng. akhir
kate, selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin ye. =))

b0yfriend. i hate the fact where i am missing him. URGH. day by day, im getting SERIOUS over him. mama! saye mau kahwin mak..! theres a time, b0yf and i talked ab0ut married. we d0nt pin on high h0pes, but all we need is t0, DOA. mudah mudahan, dia adelah j0d0hku sehingga akhir hayat. amin. baby, S.A.B.A.R...! hahahaha.

he turned this way, c0z he misses me to0 much. lols.

2010-09-17T01:09:00.004+08:00

seri0usly. im damned pissed off. y0u are just s0meone new. w0rking in the new envir0nment over there. y0u have n0t yet t0 kn0w alm0st everything. c0mpared t0 the previ0us cliques ive been w0rking with in the past, y0u are the w0rst. if i had knew ab0ut this, ive l0nged get my ass off out there. **** y0u, i can say. im just a PART-TIMER. n0 need t0 f0rce me.

luckily, s0meone expected, was there t0 watch my perf0rmance. and alhamdullilah i c0uld say.. c0z he agrees t0 pr0m0te my salary. debate him if y0u want. he was far way difference fr0m y0u. he was once a a black shirt, just like y0u. he sh0wed me respect. he watched my progressi0n. he understo0d my situati0n. a pers0n like him deserved t0 be pr0m0ted. im pr0ud of him. but y0u..? nah. i shall n0t pr0l0nged this any l0nger, c0z t0ugues may wagged.

the reas0n i decided t0 stay is because, im pr0ud t0 have met m0st of my c0lleagues w0rking there. im glad t0 have them by my side. they made me feel c0mf0rtable. i enj0yed w0rking with them, alth0ugh i just w0rked alm0st, out of the blue mo0n. and wtf, y0u wanted me t0 transferred t0 an0ther outlet..? get this in y0ur thick skull, i am just a PART TIMER. why cant y0u just be understanding..?

an0ther reas0n is bacause of one malay uncle. he was a dishwasher there bef0re. believe it or n0t, he used t0 w0rk in a h0tel line bef0re. he once say this t0 me bef0re he left tt outlet, "pakcik pesan dengan mereka supaya simpankan awak, kerana awak rajin bekerja. pandai membahagikan masa walaupun awak terlalu sibuk dgn sek0lah, dgn pekerjaan tambahan dan laen2. pakcik suke dgn pekerja macam awak. terus terang ckp, jikalau lah pakcik adelah org besar di outlet ini, pakcik mahu simpankan awak." and gener0usly, he gave me a 10 d0llar n0te.
i c0uld only aff0rd, a SMILE. just a wide smile is all i c0uld give.

pe0ple like him to0, can understand. and why cant y0u..? please d0nt be sarcastic and d0nt be biased can..? seri0usly, y0ur respect t0wards the staff is t0tally sux. its the fact.

URGH. binget. binget. tapi harus tetap bersabar.

with no love, tyra.

i hate this p0st.

thank y0u s0 much f0r the day.

**** y0u.

2010-08-24T15:23:00.004+08:00

im just taking a sh0rt break here. energy is very weak. study with an empty st0mach. but after all, as a MUSLIM, i have t0 be str0ng. ive been trying to av0id th0se giddiness in me. ive kept on applying l0ts of axe oil all over me, but still, it d0esnt help on me.

tell me, h0w t0 get rid of it..? this m0nth is a fasting m0nth and i cant p0ssibly eat any fo0d. COBAAN. ya allah ya tuhan ku, di dalam bulan yang mulia ini, ku berd0akan kepada mu supaya kuatkan iman ku.. amin.

and last friday, alth0ugh it was late night surprise, it was such a BLAST.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

Fadhli Bin Husaini.

p/s : I LOVE YOU.

2010-08-16T17:47:00.004+08:00

its hard being a student. theres to0 many things t0 be d0ne. trust me, h0lidays were n0t like a h0lidays.

BANG..! i needed a gun which can really sho0t my head.

on t0p of that, it was never easy t0 be a go0d daughter, a go0d sister and a go0d girlfriend. aiyayayayaa..! i better ENDURE in life. ok. thats it. i shall end with an impr0priate ending..

2010-08-11T02:15:00.004+08:00

hello. i kn0w that my bl0g is s0 dead. ive been s0 busy lately and im super seri0us ab0ut it. its n0t ab0ut ab0nd0ning n0r straying, but its ab0ut the situati0n that kept me s0 legathic t0 bl0g. im s0rry if y0u peeps had been missing me. hehe.

this m0nth, i g0t the chance t0 celebrate singap0re's 45th birthday at marina b0ulevard. alth0ugh i am n0t feeling that well th0ugh, i had fun with my cliques..! our hard w0rk had been paid off and a $40 n0te is w0rth it.

m0nths had passed, and our l0ve st0ry is getting str0nger and str0nger. baby, its all ab0ut y0u wh0m i l0ve the m0st. y0u had never fail t0 make me smile every day.. im happy with the way we are and yesh, i wanna gr0w old with y0u baby bc0z i wanna see y0u with0ut any teeth.. heheh.

a questi0n was being asked by him,

HIM : b, bile me nak tgk y0u marah me..?

ME : hahaha. i tak pandai larr nak marah org.. knape..? y0u nak me marah y0u..?

HIM : i nak~..

ME : gyler la mataer ku yang satu nie.. tumbang kan y0u, aru tau..

HIM : b.. i nak..

ME : HEP..! hahahhaahahahahahaha!

2010-08-07T13:48:00.005+08:00

what s0 great in wearing specs..?

i d0nt see why my b0yfriend l0ve t0 threatened me int0 wearing specs instead of lens..

and.. i d0nt see the beauty in me.

if p0ssible, i wanna be beautiful like this..

p0ssible...?

2010-07-25T19:32:00.005+08:00

Peace be up0n to y0u.

i think ive been a very bad girl f0r aband0ning my bl0g s0 much. i am pretty busy. my tight schedule kept me hectic each day. seri0us. n0t only with sch im busy, but with my w0rks to0. i had lessen alm0st everything. im just to0 tired to describe.

s0 jyeaah, ive taken my off day on friday. i pr0mised t0 take m0mma t0 dine at sakura f0r celebrating her advanced birthday. After a l0ng time of n0t meeting mr ri0, i br0ught him al0ng to0. i feel like crying. yes, i d0. c0z ive been missing him to0 much.

baby, happy m0nthsary t0 y0u. im glad that we've been t0gether thr0ughout m0re than half a year. i dunn0 h0w actually i can fell f0r y0u when im just a primary two kid. lols. and i sh0uld thanks g0d f0r letting y0u fall in l0ve with me when we met each other like again ever since we knew each other in Marina Mandarin Hotel. als0, i w0uld like t0 thanks g0d f0r kn0cking a sense over me by n0t calling it a "puppy l0ve" .. baby, i l0ve y0u, and i h0pe that y0u d0 l0ve me to0.. let us pray t0 ALLAH that our l0ve will lasts till the end of time. AMIN.

and oh yes, happy birthday ibu..! y0u are my greatest gift, my id0l~!

I thanked ALLAH s0 much f0r y0ur presence in my w0rld..!

2010-07-17T21:06:00.004+08:00

using 'firew0rks' is fun and it turns out to be this way. aww.. i fell in l0ve with the picture im editing. mr ri0, fulermak.. abang HANCEM ah. abang MACHO ah. tel0r kat tangan semakin besar pe..? hahhahaha. inilah pasangan hidupku. FADHLI HUSAINI.

oh tuhan maha Esa,

ku p0h0nkan keampunan Mu

Tunjukkan arah restumu,

berikan kami bahagia..

Amin.

he made me fall in l0ve with him each and everyday with0ut failing. the sacrificed that he had given me is abs0lutely high, even much higher than climbing up on a m0untain. watever it is, n0 matter what happen, im glad to say that he was always by my side thr0ugh up and d0wn..!

baby, i l0ve the way y0u stare at me straight into my eyes. :)

with love, tyra.

2010-07-12T20:15:00.006+08:00

hey! y0u st0le my heart!
hush baby.. d0nt cry anym0re. trust me, i really l0ve y0u.
ALWAYS.

im glad that we had made this far. seri0usly, i l0ve the way he l0ve me m0re than i d0. n0 other man ever l0ve me like the way he did. he was my first l0ve, and i prayed that he will als0 be my endless l0ve. insyaallah.

s0 jyeah.. had lunch cum dinner at Mckenzie. abg ayus blanje ah! hehe. had a great outing with the family. very kec0hrables!

and guess wh0m we met..?
we met fauziah latiff at s0merset 313 while wind0w sh0pping.
pretty her.

with l0ve, tyra.

2010-06-30T15:44:00.005+08:00

g0t my mst results at last. alhamdulilah. nvr did i expect that ive passed all my m0dules. my hard w0rk is w0rth. phew..! what a relieve..! h0pe that i can d0 my very best f0r the next term. amin. i always believe the phrase, "patience is the key t0 success".. lets h0pe that this phrase w0nt just simply slip/fade away fr0m my mind. and thats because, i believe i can d0 it! :)

and oh yesh! i rand0mly surf the net and i f0und this.

h0w i wish i had it on my own. lawa kan..?

ive wasted my tw0 weeks h0liday by g0ing t0 and fr0 of w0rk.

family camping this friday till sunday..!! its time f0r me t0 relax my mind. i cant wait.
wo0ho0..!

with l0ve, tyra ♥

2010-06-28T12:52:00.013+08:00

first and forem0st, happy 20th birthday t0 me..! i n0e it was already to0 late f0r me t0 p0st ab0ut it, but oh wells.. i just l0ve the feeling of entering into the 2nd century club. it was like w0w..! i feel m0re than sexcited.

i w0uld just like t0 say thanks t0 my classmates wh0 had given me an extreme surprise at scho0l. and silly, silly me, i had been fo0led by them. anyways, thanks f0r th0se wh0 had sacrificed their j0urney fr0m clementi and back t0 scho0l, rushing, kn0wing that im rushing f0r h0me.

ch0c0late cake.

once again, thank y0u dearies.. y0u gerls rawks..!

and because of y0u gerls, i ended up "pee-ing" in my pants.

what a shame..! lols

i was to0 busy preparing f0r my exams. i currently had n0 mo0d t0 celebrate. but still, l0vely pe0ple ar0und me, managed t0 make me happy. thanks t0 ibu, f0r buying mutabak and wanting to have it f0r dinner with me. als0, thank y0u t0 mak and bapak f0r making a small cerem0ny f0r me. last but n0t least, my lennyro0..!! thanks f0r the necklace.. n0t f0rgetting, all the aunties, uncles and c0usins f0r attending the cerem0ny.

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and f0r my l0ve, (hahahhahah..). he is one funny pers0n. sh0uld i or sh0uld i n0t talk ab0ut it..? hmm.. maybe i sh0uld. the m0ment we met each other, the very first thing he gave is that royal jewellery plastic bag. i opened it, just to find out tt theres n0thing in it. yet, he still can claim that my gift was still at the sh0p and we had t0 make our way t0 viv0. pfft. -_-

our st0mach is empty and we need fo0d t0 satisfy ourselves. s0, he went t0 treat me t0 thai express. when we had ordered our fo0d, t0 my surprise, he sang me a birthday s0ng and to0k a small b0x out fr0m his p0cket. and zomg..! i opened up just t0 find out that it was a real silver bracelet..!

he put it on f0r me, and i went speechless. he started t0 st0ry telling me of h0w awkward of him t0 buy that thing in a jewellery place.. thank y0u l0ve. i really d0 appreciate it.. :) p/s: i d0nt need anything expensive except f0r y0ur l0ve.

finally, i met ella..! it was like zilli0n times didnt saw her. and damn, tts was the sadden part. and yes, thats the only time we met each other at her c0usin's engagement. c0ngrats kak uteh..! meet up so0n l0ve. i miss y0u.

i g0t super hyper active when g0ing t0 marina bay sands. the scenery was like.. w0w..! alth0ugh only part of it is already opened. n0w i n0e that the b0yfriend is als0 ph0t0gynic. haha! tell y0u one secret, he wanted t0 be the m0del of adidas..! pfft.. -_-

ok. thats it.

THE END.

(hahahhaahhahhahaha!)

with l0ve, tyra ♥

s0ccer fever.

2010-06-12T17:51:00.006+08:00

the t0urnament had n0t even started and yet, he oredi bec0me s0 the 'semangat' being a g0alkeeper. lols. this s0ccer freak of mine had never g0t en0ugh of s0ccer. 24 h0urs s0ccer.. (chey! bedek nah ku nie..!) hahaha.

and as result..

"b, me nak sapu minyak bubut kat luka y0u lagy b0leh..? best ah me lap kesan2 darah y0u.." :P

its the s0ccer seas0n n0wadays. wo0h0o..! w0rld cup! and yesterday, im watching it t0gether with l0ve. its time t0 get s0ccer fever..!! wee~

if y0u were t0 be a s0ccer star one day, n0 matter what, y0u are still my number one fan. my number one id0l in my heart. :))

p/s : baby, i l0ve y0u.

with l0ve, tyra ♥

n0thing is easy, MST over.

2010-06-12T17:04:00.008+08:00

if y0u pe0ple think that p0ly life is easy, y0u guys are wr0ng. it may be great, it may be fun, but things are getting harder and harder each day. i sw0re. s0metimes, i felt that quitting is the best way, but i believe that this is the only way t0 success. it was indeed a stressful peri0d where y0u have t0 meet with th0se date duees to0 s0on and then, it left y0u with a few days t0 catch up with th0se papers.

c0mpare to ITE life, it was very different. A very big maj0r difference. in ITE, we can at least depends on n0tes like a bo0k t0 study. but in p0ly..? we had t0 depend on online n0tes. seri0usly, i hate it. wanna n0e why..? because if i went online on my lappy, my hands g0t very itchy and they will get to0 tempting that they aut0 m0ve my fingers ont0 the keyb0ard, and press, "facebo0k.c0m". As a result, i ended up there and the list g0es on and on. h0w i wish th0se n0tes d0esnt have t0 rely on online. pfft. -_-

t0 me, i believe that in this life, n0thing c0mes easy and i h0pe that g0d will give me the strength t0 g0 on in this j0urney. amin.

n0w its h0liday and i cant even tune in that mo0d on. pfft. at least, give me a break can..?

with l0ve, tyra ♥

2010-05-09T14:24:00.004+08:00

its been l0ng ive n0t updated anything. everything in my life is s0, s0 packed, leaving me in a hectic c0nditi0n. alm0st everyday, ive been praying to0 hard t0 g0d t0 give me the strength t0 overc0me all th0se risky p0ssibilities. and n0t f0rgetting, thank y0u mr ri0 f0r giving me the str0ng m0tivati0n.. "biar susah sekarang, senang di kemudian hari.."

scho0l was fun where cliques had always been making my day a cheerful ones. they were always the best..! smile is the best medicine...! it kept me healthy..! hahahhaa.

deamn.. i miss this mr ri0 of mine. i l0ve my mr ri0 to0..! each and everyday, he had never fail t0 make my day a great one. although we d0nt meet that often, he will never fail t0 make me smile..! he had been great in supp0rting me in everything i d0..! i l0ve the way he m0tivate me when he knew that im weak and feeling very d0wn.

last but n0t least, happy m0thers day. i g0tta say a big thanks t0 my one and only mum, wh0 had been bearing with my own attitude f0r years. be it bad or go0d. im s0rry f0r tr0ubling y0u to0 much within these 20years. i pr0mised y0u that i shall be a go0d daughter fr0m n0w onwards.. hahaha.. i n0e, y0u will say "bullshit". hahaha. n0 matter what, this is a go0d opp0rtunity. i'll try..! y0u are the best, m0m..!! y0u are always the apple of my eyes..! i l0ve y0u..!!

with l0ve, tyra

2010-05-02T15:38:00.003+08:00

i hate the part where i sh0uld d0 things very independently. ive became one and its n0t easy. damn. lets n0t talk ab0ut it. whatever it is, i must accept the fact that im str0ng en0ugh t0 face it reality. only ALLAH sh0uld help me.

scho0l was fun. especially the part where we had g0ne t0 raffles lighth0use which l0cated outside singap0re. the scenery is admirable. it was indeed a beautiful island.

ok. fullst0p.

i dunn0 what t0 share anym0re. damn. i seri0usly need s0meone t0 replace me on tuesday dinner as i seri0usly need t0 attend t0 s0mething urgently.. help anyone..? :(

2010-04-24T20:04:00.003+08:00

happy 4th, fadhli..!

the surprise turned out t0 be s0ur. mr ri0 ap0l0gised f0r n0t being able t0 make it sweet. baby, i d0nt need anything. what i need m0st, is y0ur l0ve. y0ur c0nditi0nal l0ve t0wards me. thats it.

still, this sweetheart of mine is s0,s0 stubb0rn. yet, he felt upset f0r n0t getting me any. guess what..? it was a liverpo0l jersey which he wanted by having an engravement of my name on it.

i kept asking him what was the surprise all ab0ut..? i was asked t0 keep my m0uth shut and f0ll0wed him. i n0e im being to0 ann0ying. till we reached that particular l0cati0n. ADIDAS..? what the hell he w0uld bring me in..? we went r0aming r0und in the sh0p. when he knew that he c0uldnt find that object, he finally admited. "B.. im s0rry.."

reas0n..?

"i th0ught of buying y0u a liverpo0l jersey with y0ur name engraved on it, but it happen t0 be n0 st0ck. liverpo0l shirt g0nna be changed. n0 m0re carlsberg l0g0 on it. maybe i shall buy it f0r y0u next m0nth since the st0ck will be out next m0nth."

y0u n0e what i d0..? i went speechless. hahaha..! baby, all i need is just y0ur l0ve. n0t m0re than that..! tak0t mataer y0u yang satu ni lari ekh..? lols.

again and again, he ap0l0gised. he was actually lo0king f0rward t0 see me wearing it but theres n0 st0ck. yet he feel upset f0r n0t getting me that jersey..

b.. b.. sayang jugak y0u kat me.. lols. he's the man..! heehee. and n0w, im missing him. maybe, i miss smelling his bvlguri/david0ff.. sedap..! lols. nak bawak ah tu b0t0l ik0t aku.. mane2 pegy, leh bau..!

with l0ve, tyra ❤

2010-04-21T19:45:00.005+08:00

hi all, my ap0l0gies t0 y0u readers f0r n0t being able t0 update my bl0g frequently. im s0rry if s0me of y0u may think that i am missing-in-acti0n f0r n0t being able t0 find the right tyme t0 spent with y0u peeps.

First and f0rem0st, ive been very busy with scho0l life. eversince scho0l had started, life had been very different. in p0ly, there was a maj0r difference c0mpared t0 ITE. n0w, i had t0 deal with th0se digits in my mind again. the disease is haunting me back. f0r real.

MATHS. the subject which i f0und it far way to0 challenging, leaving me t0 s0lve it with difficulty. oh g0d, if ever happen that i were t0 saw th0se digits again, please help me. help me FIGHT that disease.

PLUS..! t0day marked the third day of scho0l, and yet, ive been assigned t0 write an essay of 250-300 w0rds. it had been l0ng ever since i wr0te a c0mp0siti0n..! ive g0t t0 make sure that my english w0nt r0t each day. insyaallah.

ya allah, ya tuhanku, tabahkanlah semangat aku untuk menghadapi kesemua subjek yang aku pelajari ini. AMIN, ya rabbal 'alamin.

sec0ndly, as usual, i am busy with w0rk. handling with tw0 j0b at one g0 is very tiring. but what t0 d0..? i need cash t0 earn f0r myself. i had t0 supp0rt myself. f0r this week, i w0nt be w0rking to0 much due t0 s0me circumstances. next week, i have t0 be prepare f0r the w0rst. n0 w0rk, n0 m0ney.. true..?

its true that ive been spending less time with l0ve as ive been keeping myself busy with a l0t of stuff. im glad that ive g0t an understanding and reas0nable b0yfriend..! and im thankful f0r that.. :)

well.. a l0t of things had been running wild in my mind. it makes me g0 spinning with0ut st0pping. lets h0pe that this w0nt make me g0 mad. haha. this is life, and ive g0t t0 accept the fact. with ALLAH stays within in my heart, im sure everything w0uld be fine. AMIN.

with l0ve, tyra ❤

2010-04-19T15:44:00.007+08:00

its freezing like hell f0r the very first day of scho0l. i think i f0rget my blanket. hahaha. started off my day by d0ing assignment. co0l~ micr0s0ft excel. the subject which i used t0 hate bef0re.

n0w, i need t0 have everything d0ne as so0n as p0ssible, c0z mr ri0 had been lecturing me t0 sleep early. he still had the cheek t0 say, SCHOOL..? What is scho0l..? fullscap..? What is fullscap..? ni mataer ekh, ku yakdush aru tau.. tau p0n dier tak0t..

pizza hut at marina square was awes0me..! as a result, mr ri0 managed t0 finish his p0rti0n, meanwhile, i cant finish my p0rti0n. d0nt ask me. i d0nt even n0e why.. even th0ugh my st0mach was empty at the p0int of time.

mr ri0 ended his day by saying this t0 me, "baby..y0u are attracted t0 the man u jersey right.?"

"n0, wh0 says..? im n0t. im just abs0lutely attracted t0 y0ur david0ff's perfume, n0t y0ur man u jersey..! pfft..!" -_-

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went over t0 his crib at yew tee. mr ri0 fetched me with his k0pet face right after he w0ke up fr0m his sleep with0ut taking a sh0wer. bacen bt0l la mataer ku nie. haha.
patiently waiting f0r him t0 have his sh0wer bef0re g0ing out meeting his friends f0r a re-uni0n. sadhli, the fantastic driver, fetched us under mr ri0's bl0ck. he dr0ve a h0nda civic car. eksyen sey.. lols.

fr0m 7pm t0 3am :

kara0ke at marsiling
ECP
shee-sha at bugis
h0me sweet h0me.

had a great laughter with his crazy bunch of friends.

sekian, terima kasih. hehehe.

hingga berjumpe lagy..! chey..! mcm perbualan deejay larr pulak..!

2010-04-09T21:50:00.005+08:00

ive been killing time in fr0nt of my lappy f0r to0 l0ng. seri0usly, i am b0red t0 death. was supp0sed t0 meet ella, but was cancelled due t0 s0me circumtances. damn, seri0usly i miss her like a l0tt sia.. especially her crazyness. its been l0ng ive n0t met her. but sadly, t0day was n0t our day. h0pefully, on the 18th, we will meet again.

instead of meeting each other just n0w, we chat on msn. ho0ray..! n0w i can chat in msn oredi since ive g0t my new lappy.. we catch up quite a few stuffs on each other. h0w can we n0t chat..? c0z its been l0ng we had never share anything with each other. either each of us was to0 busy with life. tts partly of the reas0n.

he, the one wh0 had been sacrificing day and night f0r the family. he, wh0m i can say that he was the breadwinner of the family. he, wh0 had been w0rking extremely hard f0r the inc0me of the family. he suffered a l0t in the stake of l0ss and winning. as a result, in this situati0n, he cant find the time t0 spent time with his family. his family even th0ught that his l0ve f0r his family had g0ne..

the st0ry g0es...

his name is J. he was married and he had 3 lil'pricess. one day, he went all br0ke and he was f0rced t0 leave his c0mpany c0z his c0mpany had suffered a great loss. its been t0ugh on him after that. it was n0t easy t0 find j0b. within a m0nth after that, he merely had f0und himself a j0b. maybe, it was a l0w class ones. t0 him, it d0esnt matter c0z what he needed m0st, is the m0ney. the m0ney t0 supp0rt his family. he even to0k an offer of overtime at w0rk. at times, he did n0t even b0ther c0me h0me.

one day, his elder daughter had the opp0rtunity t0 study in p0lytechnic. his daughter currently need a lapt0p. he tried all ways t0 buy her a lapt0p by seeking help. he was failed in many missi0n. as a result, he b0rr0wed a sum fr0m his sister and pr0mised t0 pay her back by installment within 6 m0nth. partly, i d0 play a part to0.. as a part time w0rker, i helped him pay half of it to0..

i swear i wanted t0 cry. i was m0ved. well.. he was n0ne other than my daddy. the way he sacrificed really t0uched my heart. he had n0t sh0wn any l0ve, but deep d0wn, he actually d0 l0ve us. daddy, i l0ve y0u. and i pr0mised that i will d0 my best in everything that i d0. insyaallah..

2010-04-07T14:08:00.007+08:00

SP enr0lment is like d0t.. d0t.. just take a package of envel0pe and then d0ne. one funny thing i g0nna laugh out l0ud is that we as the SP student need t0 g0 f0r a medical check up. da mcm kena mas0k nati0nal service gitu..! hahahaha.

i went f0r the check up yesterday evening and shit..! i have t0 make a c0meback. my urine tests is abn0rmal. the blo0d and pr0tein kena infected. d0ct0r advised n0 tea, n0 c0ffee, n0 gassy drinks, but ONLY plain water. weight sho0t d0wn to0.. but still, its acceptable. f0r that, i have n0 w0rry.. but my urine..! haiz..

and jyeah.. thanks cik zanita f0r the surprise y0u gave me at w0rk. insyaallah, i will heed y0ur advice. thanks f0r giving me a l0t of enc0uragement f0r my eff0rt of achieving t0 p0ly.

bef0re opening.

only t0 find out tt it was a b0x of ch0c0late..!

kept it in the freezer f0r one night.

w0ke up the next m0rning,
t0t of eating it as my breakfast (i n0e, it was unhealthy t0 eat it in the m0rning..)
but never did i expect that there was a ten d0llar n0te behind it..!
i was speechless.

once again, thank y0u cik zanita. :))

dear j0hn, why didnt y0u wait f0r us t0 buy y0u..? and n0w, y0u were n0where t0 be f0und. im heartbr0ken. but still, we w0nt give up on y0u..! we shall find y0u..! we wanna buy y0u n0 matter what..!

2010-04-03T02:30:00.004+08:00

i still cant g0 t0 sleep ever since i knew ab0ut the results. it was... unbelievable! nevertheless, it was all w0rth it! after the sacrifices of studying th0se n0tes in one wh0le day each day, racking up th0se dead brains and having th0se maj0r headaches in mem0rising th0se laws.

i w0uld like t0 take the opp0rtunity t0 thanks mak and bapak, wh0 did the d0a tanda kesyukuran f0r me. i was surprised. i didnt expect it t0 happen. and n0w, i feel like crying because im overj0yed..!

yessa..! m0nday, mr ri0 g0nna acc0mpany me t0 singap0re p0ly f0r my registrati0n and after that, off t0 t0wn. the bo0k. the bo0k. i want! dear j0hn, please wait f0r us patiently. hahaha.

oh yes, chelsea. please be go0d. d0 y0ur best t0night. thank y0u. :)
i wanna see b0yfriend merajuk. l0ls.

jahat yer aku nie.. hehehe. *evil laughs*

with l0ve, tyra ♥

2010-04-01T15:29:00.005+08:00

im pretty over with my nerv0us. n0 m0re heart racing anym0re.

alhamdullilah. my prayers had been answered, eventh0ugh it was in my 2nd ch0ice.. this is the only c0urse which ive been making masef thinking twice. in fact, made me in a c0nfusing situati0n. i merely put it as my 1st ch0ice in the first place, but then ive m0ved it t0 2nd ch0ice since my heart wanted to0 much in business administrati0n. as a result, i ended up with this c0urse. instead of the 1st ch0ice, i g0t the 2nd ch0ice. im satisfied.

click it t0 enlarge.

thanks allah, f0r giving me the opp0rtunity to study again. alhamdullilah. ive been jumping with a l0t of j0y..

till here then, go0dbye..!

2010-03-31T13:30:00.005+08:00

m0mma had her half day at w0rk. she was back to0 early than expected. i was aw0ke by her sharp v0ice. she barked at me, "al0ng, wake up! g0 check y0ur results..!" (urm mummy.. am i taking the results or was it y0u..?hehe. *evil smile. ) she was all smile. dunn0 whats wr0ng with her t0day.. but nevertheless, im secured when m0mma was right beside me t0 acc0mpany me t0 check my result.

alhamdullilah.. i passed. n0w, waiting f0r p0ly results. it will be only be out t0mm0rr0w. thats the MAJOR thing. again and again, my heart was making th0se weird racing s0und. im feeling extra nerv0us. ya allah ya tuhanku, sekali lagy, dengarkanlah bisikan hatiku ini. amin.

and of c0urse, i missed these pretty friends of mine. f0r years, we had been t0gether. up and d0wn, we still did maintained our relati0nship b0nd. f0r that, i d0 appreciate y0ur kindness and understanding. once again, thank y0u.

thank y0u m0mma f0r making a special dish f0r me t0day. thats s0 sweet of y0u. thank y0u f0r giving me the enc0uragement m0mma. i l0ve y0u. y0u are the best..! :)

g0tta prepared f0r w0rk so0n. malas nyer aku.. hehehe.

2010-03-30T19:42:00.008+08:00

i had pr0blems with my b0wels yesterday night. i am unable t0 release that 'br0wn' thingy c0ntinu0usly, which in fact i did manage t0 release just a ball. i mean, just one FREAKING ball. maybe ive eaten to0 much spicy fo0d yesterday. i ate th0se spicy milly fried chicken rice at 'cahaya' restaurant. believe it or n0t, this is my first time that ive been enj0ying eating that green chillies. haha. i n0e, kental. pe0ple used t0 eat it a decades ag0, while me..? hee. maybe im th0se s0rt of like 'ketinggalan zaman'..

yippee!! ive f0und that 'dear j0hn' bo0k..! wait f0r our pay day, then g0tta buy! i simply cant wait! its been l0ng ive been urging f0r. the bo0k had tempted me. lo0ks like mr ri0 had t0 read it first c0z ive n0t yet finished my firefight bo0k.

ive had catched this m0vie, 'When in ROME..'
funny. funny. funny. g0 watch..! b~, y0k satu hari pergy r0me. tempatnye amat indah.. hahaha.
-_- maciaamm paham..

i just had my hand burnt. again, it was the same old incident at w0rk. n0w the scar had left me a harry p0tter's scar. co0l~ haha. but still, i just l0ve being the h0tplate mama. haha.

g0sh. im feeling s0, s0 nerv0us right n0w. my heart had been thumping hard since just n0w. my legs had turn w0bbly jelly. i bet maybe i cant sleep t0night. ya allah ya tuhanku, dengarlah setiap bisikan hatiku di dalam setiap d0aku. amin.

i wanna watch my name is KHAN. the s0ngs were great. especially tere naina. :(

with l0ve, tyra ♥.

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2010-03-30T16:13:00.010+08:00

i was supp0sed t0 bl0g like a few days ag0, but damn, i was feeling s0 legathic that i d0nt feel like bl0gging. my brain g0t c0ndemned whenever i feel the need t0 bl0g. unlike n0w, im s0 free t0 d0 anything. ive spent h0urs on the c0mputer screen, wanting t0 change my bl0gskins, but hell yeah, whenever i did the amendments, this bl0g of mine became t0nggang-terbalik. instead, im giving up and decided t0 stick with this previ0us skin. im just s0 lazy t0 make one again. my bad.

im glad t0 say that my relati0nship with mr ri0 had turned 3 m0nths old..! this m0nth is the first time where we can actually celebrate it on our actual day itself. luckily, b0th of us were n0t w0rking, and yes, we had a great activity by having up t0 m0re than 2.4 km walk. we started our j0urney fr0m h0rt park t0 henders0n waves t0 m0unt faber. last but n0t least, a trip t0 keppel bay..! but time was n0t on our side. we went there at the wr0ng timing where the sun shine fiercely on us. even directly t0 our hair. we sh0uld have been there in the late afterno0n=evening.. as a result, we pespired a l0t. and whenever we sweat, the perfume in us diffused int0 the air. i l0ve smelling mr ri0's bvlguri. nice. and im l0ving it..! :)

him : b, nanti me nak jumpe jasmin hamid tau.

me : hmm.. iye larr tu.. -_-

him : bt0l b.. me nak jumpe die.. me nak clear things dengan die..

me : y0u nak clear ape benda?

him : me nak sl0w talk dengan dier, me nak ckp dengan die supaya jangan g0da me lagy. me da ader mataer.. mataer saye macam lion. saye san..gat tak0t..

me : die g0da y0u, ker y0u g0da dier..

him : die la g0da me.. me da cakap me da ader mataer, lagy die nak ganggu me..

me : b~, ni semua takkan terjadi lau y0u tak ckp jasmin hamid nye mate sexy.

hahahahahaha...! seri0usly, like wth..? of all such pe0ple, he t0ld me that jasmin hamid wanna chased him.. b~ jangan nak perasan..! hahahhaa

p/s : baby, i still l0ve y0u even th0ugh y0u said that jasmin hamid is still y0ur id0l.

i dunn0 why i suddenly feel the interest t0 read bo0k again. yesh, this is my first time reading ab0ut th0se 'perang2' bo0k. damn. it was hilari0us. thanks mr ri0, f0r b0rr0wing this bo0k f0r me t0 read. ive just c0mplete reading chapter 6 of the bo0k and i g0tta c0ntinue later on. i wanna n0e h0w the st0ry ended. will WILL JACKSON died after having the th0ught of revenge sheikh ahmed in killing his family..?

with l0ve, tyra ♥.

2010-03-22T13:24:00.003+08:00

fruck that guest f0r having to0 much c0mpliment on me. i sw0re i cant take it n0 m0re. but i ended up giving her a smile. a SARCASTIC smile. well.. what m0re can i d0..? cust0mers were always right. -_-

and one m0re thing. it was pissing me off.

fruck LIVERPOOL.
why the hell y0u had dissapp0inted y0ur fans..? man u is s0 damn, damn lucky..!
and n0w, my b0yfriend was laughing at me. n0t only that, he als0 asked me t0 supp0rt man u instead of liverpo0l. sh0uld i or sh0uld i n0t..? i was surprised when i g0t t0 kn0w that liverpo0l had l0se t0 man u. i tried ways to trick my b0yfriend as he didnt get t0 watch the match since he was w0rking..

guess what his reply..?

"hey baby.. d0nt ever try t0 trick a man u player here aytes..? y0u think im g0nna believe what y0u say..? Mariah carey had just called me. she asked me why the hell am i n0t playing in the match..? and i gave her a reply that it w0uld be a waste of m0ney if i flew there and play f0r man u.."

fruck it. fruck.

and i bet he must be wearing his new man u shirt t0 w0rk t0day. -_-

yesterday my day screwed me up just because of that match. but i enj0yed having late night talks with b0yfriend in the ph0ne. sheesh.

haiya.. t0day im just am to0 lazy f0r anything. ive g0t s0mething t0 attend this evening..
oh. im s0 in l0ve with the video of cinta ix0ra..!! the hunks... melts me.. aww.. mr ri0, d0nt jeal0us.

2010-03-20T01:25:00.007+08:00

i am walking al0ne in the l0nely streets. was actually on my way h0me fr0m w0rk. busy entertaining mr ri0 on the ph0ne. he made me laugh damn hard on his sto0pid j0kes. i was happily chatting away that i d0nt intend t0 n0tice things surr0und me. till i heard tw0 v0ices calling me fr0m the back. guess wh0..? the one wh0m i intended t0 f0rget and w0uld n0t want meet him again.

one of my EX-b0yfriend. oh wth. singap0re is to0 small, i must say. i cant run. and because of him, im unable t0 have my peaceful sleep. i was up t0 thinking ab0ut h0w my reacti0n t0wards him that night. it s0unds rather sto0pid. **** y0u. urgh.

f0rget it. lets h0pe that this is the last i saw y0u. i d0nt want t0 meet y0u again. let it be the last GOODBYE.

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other readers might want t0 st0p reading after this line.. c0z i feel like talking ab0ut my b0yfriend. why? cann0t izzit..?

i feel like i am in the m0st happiest m0ment in my life. f0r being with s0meone wh0 c0uld make my day a great ones everyday.. hehe.

well.. i had my day spent with l0ve at t0wn just n0w. did his sh0pping spree. maklum la orang tu da lame tak sh0pping kan.. he b0ught his man u shirt and an adidas sneakers. and yipee! i had my sushi mixed with wasabe just n0w.. wee~ i l0ike..! & mr ri0 watched me eat. kental..! ahahahaha.

ive finally watched DEAR JOHN and im having the urge to buy the bo0k. the her0 of this m0vie made me g0 gaga. again & again, mr ri0 claimed that the her0 rented his b0dy.

-_-

up till n0w, this m0vie had influenced me & mr ri0. instead of lo0king at the mo0n, we met a sho0ting star. and thats an unbelievable ones..!

Dear j0hn(okay, change it..}

Dear fadhli,

theres s0 much i want t0 say t0 y0u, but im n0t sure where i sh0uld begin. sh0uld i start by telling y0u that i l0ve y0u? Or that the days ive spent with y0u have been the happiest in my life i always want t0 remember my time with y0u. like a pure white light, breathtaking t0 beh0ld.

and ive caught s0me of y0ur stupid silly pictures.

mat rep plus b0tak head.

and erk.. wheres y0ur kambing..?

hahahhahaah!

baby.. what the hell y0u did..?

what p0se was this..?

OMG.

others were laughing at y0u..

and theres silly c0nversati0n. of all such pe0ple, he wanna meet JASMIN HAMID.

-_-

2010-03-10T00:33:00.006+08:00

ok, ive just hang up my sweet c0nversati0n with mr ri0. i bet he w0uld be fast asleep right n0w. ive en0ugh of screaming "yeah2..! da b0leh tyd0 lambat (can sleep late oredi).." at his ears al0ud. guess he g0t ann0yed or maybe he was just plainly jeal0us that i can finally manage t0 sleep late since scho0l had already end. hahaha.

oh g0sh..! i kept pressing the 'backspace' butt0n each time i wanted t0 create a p0st. i bet its been l0ng since ive start bl0gging. aww.. i miss bl0gging to0 much till i dunn0 where t0 start. haiy0.

n0w, i can feel that the earth is shining on me again. ive been out of the pressu-rizing categ0ry. but still, im just w0rried f0r just a thing. damn w0rried. shall n0t exp0se ab0ut it. i h0pe allah c0uld hear my prayers. insyaallah.

09 march 2010, marked the last day of stepping int0 that c0llege. planned t0 watch m0vies with friends. we wanted very much t0 watch dear j0hn.. but it was n0t being 'on air'. instead of dear j0hn, we watched happy g0 lucky. it was hilari0us..! damn funny.

and oh, i miss this babybo0 of mine..! its been s0 l0ng since we did n0t meet up. blame the s0ur lips of mine.! h0w saddening ekh.. hehe. and wtf. our plan of meeting and spending with each other this friday is failed due t0 s0me circumtances.

baby, i miss staring at y0u, especially when our eyes met each other. i miss y0ur smile. i miss pinching y0u. i miss punching y0u. i miss the smell of y0ur perfume. i guess, i just miss everything ab0ut y0u.

y0ur trust, y0ur understanding, and the care & c0ncern y0u've sh0wn t0 me had pr0ven y0ur true l0ve t0wards me. i just l0ve the way h0w y0u l0ve me m0re than i d0. n0 other guys, including my scandals(hehe, macciaam paham), my ex-b0yfriends, did the way h0w y0u did..

baby, all i can say is, thank y0u f0r l0ving me all this while.

ok, g0tta g0 t0 sleep n0w. i have t0 be early tmr. g0sh..!

2010-02-23T23:42:00.004+08:00

i felt that this term is s0, s0 pressurized. teacher kept extending dates. n0t much time left. yet, im just being a lazy bum ass. seri0usly, i need a m0tivati0n like again. g0sh..! *bang head* what shall i d0 next..? g0 t0 sleep..! i wanna have my suicidal sleep.. thats the best..! hehehehehe

'sepet' eyes. n0se bl0ated. g0at's smile.
with the lo0k of k0pet & k0reng..

HAPPY 2nd MONTHSARY, LOVE...

like finaally, im satisfied with myself by filling up my unhappy st0mach with lem0n chicken rice at 'aspirasi'.. a date with l0ve t0 viv0 after scho0l, is awes0me, th0ugh im still feeling a lil' unc0mf0rtable having mysef present there, with my scho0l unif0rm on. and oh, im in l0ve with the smell of his perfume.. huhu~

that one special kiss,
i cant believe its happening to me f0r a moment like this.

y0ur SMS had just t0uched me, and i cant believe that im shedding the tears of j0y..

i c0uld only say that I LOVE YOU to0, my bo0. :D

2010-02-08T17:40:00.005+08:00

a m0nth left and so0n, i g0tta be out of that campus.

a year of being a NITEC student + 2 years of being a HIGHER NITEC student
= 3 years of existing in that scho0l

and i realized that it was hard f0r me t0 leave that campus. leaving primary & sec0ndary scho0l wasnt that heavy.. and i dunn0 why its hard f0r me t0 leave this current campus.. maybe the teachers there were kind..? or maybe makanan kat sek0lah sedap sedap belaka..? haha. what a remark..!

currently, ive applied f0r p0lytechnic.. MARITIME BUSINESS is my first ch0ice. any suggesti0ns..? pe0ple, please give me y0ur opini0ns. i need help..! shall discl0se this on the 11 february 2010..

2010-02-05T23:38:00.004+08:00

gambar sungguh selenger.c0m.
cawan tidak perlu ekh..!
hahaha.

i am sick with my old skin, and i decided t0 change. alth0ugh it lo0ks to0 plain, still, i find it far way better than the previ0us ones. sheesh. :D

hell yeah, i am still smiling just like one crazy girl, and i d0nt care. mr ri0 had made me laugh at his SMS damn hard this evening.

mr rio : me rindu y0u.. h0w..?
me : *sings* seb0tla oh namaku..
mr rio : da.. me ckp dalam hati me. lau me seb0t nama y0u kuat2, nnt org ingat me giler..
me : lols. me p0n rindu y0u.. *sings* bagaimana harus aku menahan rasa rinduku bila kau tiada di sisi..?
mr rio : pandangilah gambar me n seb0t nama ku..
me : nnt org ingat me depressi0n.. nnt drg hantar me pegy h0spital giler camne..? me maseh nak kahwin.. hingga ke anak cucu..
mr rio : sape kate org giler tak leh kahwin..?

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa...! s0 which means, lau gile2 p0n, hati tetap sayang..! thats the reas0n why i l0ve him. he knew h0w t0 make me smile.. :)

have y0u ever heard..?
like m0ther, like s0n..

pity my dear mr ri0. he had always been the one sacrificing his sleep just f0r me. every night, he w0uld never fail t0 call me up just t0 acc0mpany me h0me once i ended my w0rk or waiting f0r me t0 zZzz first bef0re him. as a result, he ended up being sick. take care sayang.. drink plenty of water aytes.. n0 hello panda and c0ffee f0r y0u.. :P c0ncentrate on getting well first.

y0u are every reas0n, every h0pe & every dream, ive ever had, and n0 matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are t0gether is the greatest day of my life. i will always be y0urs. and, my darling, y0u will always be mine. :))

2010-01-31T01:22:00.003+08:00

i still feel that many things still running thr0ugh my mind afterwhich i dunn0 what t0 d0 next. maybe, i shall just pray hard that g0d shall give me the strength t0 overc0me all this. amin.

sadly, i miss my mr.ri0.. i bet he als0 d0. only g0d n0es h0w much we miss each other. he treats me like a princess and the way he lo0ks at me just tells me that he w0uld do anything to make me the happiest pers0n on earth. and the best part is, he l0ves me as much as i l0ve him.

and i pray t0 live this life with y0u.

i l0ve y0u, mr ri0. :D

2010-01-25T18:49:00.007+08:00

i am very lucky to have y0u in my life.
y0u make my w0rld gaudier.
every time i wake up, im always smiling..
im always thinking if, "am i just dreaming?"
c0z if y0u are,
y0u are the m0st marvel0us dream i ever dreamt...
even th0ugh many pe0ple think that this relati0nship arent seri0us,
well.. they are wr0ng.
im in-l0ve with y0u n0t just because of y0ur smile, kindness, or sweetness,
but im in-love with y0u because of the wh0le YOU.
im always thanking g0d, because He gives y0u to me.
y0u are the sun which shines in my sky, the reas0n why im always inspired.

i love y0u, and i will always will till' the w0rld ends.
my love f0r y0u is abstract.

" i ❤ y0u, my bo0.. "

Happy 1st monthsary!!!

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on the eve of our anniversary, daddy invited us t0 dine with family at se0ul garden. i bet mr ri0 had this q0ute in his mind bef0re meeting my family, "saye sa..ngat tak0t.." hahaha. luckily, everything went well.. but heck, i was late f0r w0rk just because of the taxi driver. pfft -_-

s0, exactly on our actual anniversary, we planned t0 head t0 arn0ld after mr ri0 ended his w0rk.. but..

planned failed.. baba(his dad) called him and invite us t0 eat at jalan kayu with his family. and my expressi0n g0es, "saye sa..ngat tak0t.." hahaha. yesterday, its him.. and n0w, its my turn. gr0ss..! and yesh, indeed i had a great time dining with his family especially with the big, big th0sai..! lols.

looks like its n0thing special on our day.. this m0nth, our fathers did the planning.. next m0nth, wh0 n0es, our mummies will be the one..? hahahaha..!

and mr ri0 ap0l0gized t0 me.. i w0ndered, "why is that s0..?"

he replied,

"yala.. usually ppl get s0mething special on their special day.. but i g0t s0mething really special tt n0 0ne have.. and that is having y0u in my heart and by my side.. l0ve y0u dear.."

and i l0ve y0u to0, darling.. :)

2010-01-22T18:46:00.016+08:00

i kn0w its a bit to0 late f0r me t0 say this.. once again, i w0uld like t0 wish my 'HERO' and dear BFF a happy 20th belated birthday.. h0pe y0u b0th like the gift ive b0ught y0u. with just an individual gift fr0m me, i h0pe y0u will appreciate it. treasure it likes h0w y0u treasure our friendship.. :)

[ md.aideel ]

y0u've been great t0 me during my life of being a single-ho0d f0r years.
y0u never fail t0 cheer me up whenever i am d0wn.
the times of whenever i am with y0u, it made me feel c0mf0rtable as y0u were always there t0 be my listening ears and als0, lend me y0ur sh0ulder f0r me t0 cry on.

theres a day where i alm0st br0ke d0wn t0 tears thinking of the past,and there sto0d y0u, right in fr0nt of me, wiping away my tears that falls c0ntinu0usly.

im t0uched .

pe0ple always misto0k us as a c0uple,where the fact is that, we were just friends.

n0 matter what we are, y0u will always be my 'her0'..
f0r that, i d0 appreciate it. :)

[ farhaana ]

she is always my 'ment0r'..!her lame j0kes will never fail t0 make me laugh.
lau da ketawe, ketawe ber0k abes..! tak leh ang..! hahaha.

alth0ugh we did argue a l0t of times,we were like 'air dicincang tidak akan putus.'
gaduh unt0k sementare jek. pas tu, uat jerk ttg pergaduhan itu..
haha.

i just f0und her great f0r being my BFF. alth0ugh she was being sarcastic or h0t tempered in her way,n0thing beat m0re than that.
c0z she was still my BFF that remains in my heart..!
i l0ve y0u ! sheesh. :D

i guess i had en0ugh said. lets h0pe that our friendship will lasts f0rever. one day, if we were t0 g0 t0 our own separate ways, please, f0rget me NOT..! lastly, thanks f0r being part of my life! :D

2010-01-17T02:50:00.010+08:00

ive been to0 busy n0wadays that i c0uld hardly find the time t0 bl0g. s0 yeah, since n0w i am very much free, tadaa..! this is my opp0rtunity t0 bl0g. hehehe.. *evil laughs.

after l0ng of n0t meeting with mr.ri0, t0day is the day where we finally met..! we went t0 bugis(since he pr0mised me 'nasi minyak'), s0merset 313 & cathay just t0 find the adidas watch that we wanted, but still, we cant make our decisi0n. we walked out of the sh0p and planned of where t0 head next.

the time was still early, s0 we headed t0..

just t0 watch the beautiful SUNSET. :)

finally, i kn0w where is keppel bay.. haha..! unlike the one that we went previ0usly.. we went t0 a deserted place which was near the stupid l0ngkang. i sw0re i wanted t0 laugh my ass out thinking ab0ut that m0ment.

and yerps. ive been f0rcing mr ri0 t0 drink that 'c0rpse water'.. he deserved it c0z he als0 been f0rcing me t0 drink that p0kka milk c0ffee.. frankly, i hate c0ffee's smell.. i prefer c0ppucin0.. sheesh.. :D

and yippee..!!

we then had made our decisi0n of the watch we wanted.
mr ri0 and me n0w owed an adidas watch..! weeho0..!

which is =

DOUBLE HAPPINESS..!

16 january 2010.

2010-01-11T18:54:00.006+08:00

its amazing h0w much i l0ve this b0y.. it just c0mes and theres n0thing i can d0 t0 st0p it. the littlest thing he can d0, is t0 make me smile bef0re i went t0 sleep. i l0ve the way we tease each other. i l0ve the way he made me laugh to0 hard. i l0ve the way h0w we can stay up all night just talking about n0thing. no matter what my mo0d is, you s0meh0w always seem to make me laugh. i l0ve h0w y0u need me as much as i need y0u, and m0st of all, i l0ve h0w y0u l0ve me..

i was at the breeks of my tears when he said this, i d0nt care h0w l0ng we will never get t0 see each other c0z i kn0w that y0u will always be in my heart. it will still remain the same and n0thing will change it.. I LOVE YOU..

darling.. y0u made me shed the tears of j0y.. i dunn0 what m0re t0 say except this, thank y0u f0r being an understanding and reas0nable b0yfriend. i l0ve y0u to0..

i had a crush on this guy since i was in primary scho0l back then.. oh wells.. i was still y0ung by then.. and of c0z, i d0nt even n0e whats the meaning of l0ve. maklum la maseh zaman kentalan.. hahaha. and i d0 blif that it was just only a crush. a crush that c0me and g0 just like that. since then, i shifted t0 an0ther sch0ol after i c0mplete my primary 3 educati0n. it was like just a year of having a crush on him.. till then, i knew it was imp0ssible f0r us t0 meet again.. and this is what i call it, a 'puppy l0ve'.

but N0, i was wr0ng.

we met again like f0r a few years back. we happened t0 w0rk in the same department. i f0und him to0 familiar that i decided t0 spy on him. when i finally f0und out the truth details on him, it was indeed true that he was my crush during my primary scho0l days. i kept quiet by then. n0t making any m0vement t0 ask him that he was once my crush.. maybe we did talk, but it was n0thing c0ncern ab0ut the crush thingy.. n0t l0ng after that, i dissappeared. i quit that place and run t0 an0ther w0rking place.. again, it was imp0ssible f0r us t0 meet again.

then again, i f0und him in fb. i added him and he started with the first c0nversati0n by asking me the reas0n of why i never w0rk in that department again.. we did exchaged numbers to0. day by day, we seemed t0 be cl0ser & cl0ser.. i mean, cl0se friend.. we talked, we chat, we meet etc..

till theres a day he pr0p0sed..

" i want t0 turn this friendship int0 a relati0nship with y0u, and i want y0u t0 be my girl.. " ni larr usher tgh buat c0nfessi0n-nyer.. tak tau part brape.. hahaha..!

and n0w, i can hardly believe that y0u were mine..

i thank God that I finally f0und y0u and all my life, ive prayed f0r s0meone like y0u and i h0pe that y0u feel the same way to0..

i l0ve y0u, my bo0.

2010-01-06T00:36:00.011+08:00

ive been away like s0, s0 l0ng.. s0me asked if im really dead, c0z my bl0g lo0ks s0 dead..! well, its n0t. i am just plainly to0 busy with w0rk and scho0l. s0metimes, i w0uld just l0g in just t0 check my email and facebo0k.

alth0ugh i had s0meone special in life, it d0esnt mean i had t0 be with him always. i still have families and friends t0 rely on. nevertheless, the durati0n of time we likely spent is quite less, all we did is, t0 sms/call each other. it depends on the way we c0mmunicate each other, and n0w, thats what i call 'trust'..! indeed, im truly thankful that ive g0t an understanding b0yfriend. sheesh. :D

s0, its already 2010 and jyeah, im turning 20 this year. OMG. with the digit '2' in fr0nt..? i suddenly feel s0 old. lols.

c0untd0wn with mr ri0, ana & kelvin, and n0t f0rgeting, jo0n kiat at marina mandarin h0tel's po0l garden..! and i g0tta said that the firew0rks were unexplainably beautiful...! it was awes0me, c0z its with my s0meone special.. :))

the l0vey-d0vey c0uple.
mr ri0, i missed my lem0n tea. :( haha..!
whats up with the extra one behind us ekh..? haha. firew0rks..! sight fr0m marina mandarin's po0l garden.

Ana Ly & Kelvin Ly.. (lols)omelette oyster.
sagita.
joon kiat.

h0w time flies to0 fast. i h0pe this year g0nna be different c0z i wanna spent the wh0le 2010 with the ones i l0ve. be it my families, girlfriends & boyfriends and of c0z with my dear mr ri0 to0. :) it was nice to spend the last few h0urs of 2009 and the start of 2010 with the one i love.

2010, please be go0d. thank y0u. :)

2010-01-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

i felt like pulling off my n0se out larr. cibai. s0 irritating..! and i hate being sick in this way.. i was supp0se t0 w0rk, but hell, i felt weak.. urgh. st0p talking ab0ut my sickness. i h0pe it will fade away so0n. it was s0 suffering.. yeaps. my v0ice da macam jantan sak.. pfft.

finally, i met up with my darling ella..! alth0ugh we met, we only shared a few st0ries despite the feeling of legathic in her. she made her way t0 meet me straight after w0rk. s0rry ella, f0r the tr0uble t0 meet me.. anyways, thanks f0r the acc0mpany..!

went sheesha-ing after that.. cappuccin0..! haha. and i meet l0ve in the night.. uh-uh, ella n0w knew the st0ry of 'the pr0p0sal'.. only she n0es ab0ut it, and i bet she had been laughing to0 hard. stoo0pid faizal..! just y0u wait heh.. wait l0ng2.. hahahah!

2009-12-25T14:59:00.004+08:00

" i wanna turn this friendship t0 the next level, which is, i want y0u t0 be my girl.. "

thanks g0d, ive finally f0und y0u. :)

i am much m0re happier than winning the l0ttery.

2009-12-22T12:27:00.011+08:00

that evening, mr ri0 passed me a paper bag of adidas. and t0 my surprise, it was a liverpo0l jersey..! with his name engraved on it. since he was a man u fan, he decided t0 pass it t0 me. theres a st0ry behind that jersey. it was a l0ng st0ry that i shall n0t elab0rate here.. i bet this jersey might b very expensive. am i ryte t0 say this, mr ri0..?

fr0nt view.

back view.

OMG. guess what..?? i w0re the shirt, and it turned out t0 be very big! it was an L size.. it was a man size anyways.. and oh yesh, i fucking l0ve the shirt very much..! thank y0u, mr ri0!!!

a day spent with mr ri0 at the zo0 yesterday, was hell great. we went r0aming the wh0le place f0r h0urs. and his m0mma g0t jeal0us as we g0t t0 take a picture with ah-meng.. lols.

picture will be upl0ad once he retrieved his lapt0p in a week time. all pictures were kept safely in his m0m's camera. will upl0ad it once i received it.

had lunch at KFC. went straight t0 jur0ng p0int after that. but f0r go0dness sake, the m0vie that i wanted s0 much t0 watch was n0t being sh0wn at jur0ng p0int. ended up, we went t0 west mall.. we catched the 7pm sh0w..

NEW MOON..!!

and i just l0ve watching jac0b..! omg. his sexy b0dy made me g0 gagaga..

mr ri0 claimed that jac0b st0le his b0dy away..

hahahahah!

thank y0u mr ri0 f0r having just a day spending y0ur time with me. and als0, thanks f0r the treat..!

so0n, maybe i g0nna own an adidas watch. wee~ which is equal t0 d0uble happiness!

2009-12-21T23:05:00.013+08:00

Happy 20th birthday

safrinah bte safar wan!!!

cake by aideel. great j0b. :D

wind0w sh0pping at s0merset 313.
dinner at pastamania.
catch the m0vie of DONT LOOK BACK. (leaving pe0ple with a '???')
cerem0ny of cutting cake at b0at quay.

h0h0h0. merry xmas.

entrance of s0merset 313.

alth0ugh the m0vie was n0t a thumb up, we still did enj0y our day.. especially t0 inah.. we h0pe that y0u like the gift that we b0ught y0u and had a great day spending time with us.

last but n0t least, enj0y being in the 2nd century of y0ur age!! :)

2009-12-15T20:46:00.009+08:00

happy 12th birthday t0 nur faiqah !!!

wish y0u all the best in y0ur future endeav0urs.

attended t0 her birthday party on the 12th.. but bef0re that, me and mr ri0 had a hard time int0 finding her a gift. in the first place, we were planning t0 head t0 mustafa centre.. but was cancelled since neither of us wanted t0 head there.. and s0, we headed t0 funan centre.. we went r0und and r0und the mall.. just t0 find a piece of mp3.. instead of mp3, we b0ught her an ip0d.. an ip0d with a camera behind it. n0w, that was co0l!..

after that, we went t0 bugis village. i was planning t0 buy her a bag since it was what she wanted. we caught a bag in a st0re but the design d0esnt attracted us. s0, we went t0 bugis juncti0n.. and tadaa!!! it was a new arrival.. ADIDAS !!!! with a pencil b0x on it.

since then, mr ri0 acc0mpanied me t0 my w0rkplace since i wanted t0 take my pay. ended up, we to0k a cab t0 her party since it started at 3pm. met his family. very the kec0h-ness.. especially the kids. s0 cute! they were int0 MJ's dance! hahaha. nice sh0w..

ok n0w.. picture time.. s0rry.. st0len picture..

credits to his auntie f0r taking this picture.

happy family..

this is when siblings g0ne b0nkers, they misbehave.. lols.

n0w, theres me in it..

and i swear i was indeed to0 shy..

smile till n0 eyes and cheeks became like puffer fish.

and i turned int0 one simple ugly ducklings.

hahahaha.

with his sister and eldest br0ther..

and yeah.. thats him.

ri0 fadhlinand.

thats his inventi0n of his name.

sadly, mr ri0 had t0 bo0k in f0r w0rk after the party.. halfway of sending me h0me bef0re g0ing off t0 w0rk, i ended up taking a cab t0 labrad0r since my family were there.. as usual, it was family lepak-ing day.. :)

2009-12-08T01:58:00.006+08:00

life had always been beautiful n0wadays. it was s0 undescribe-able. tiring, but yet fun. been shaking my ass a l0t at w0rk. w0rking day and night was one hell hectic days. it was n0t yet christmas, but still, we g0t th0se advanced celebrati0n.

here they are..

urm.. i f0rg0t her name. she's one of the new staff.

the female chef had t0 be dress up in santa's suit.

and happily we sang, "we wish y0u a merry christmas".

Part one.

Part tw0.

Part three.

i n0e. i lo0k stupid in that santa's hat. hahahah!

ok.. n0 c0mments f0r these tw0 pictures. it was just rand0mly taken.

had fun playing s0ccer during p.e less0n yesterday. i managed t0 sc0re a g0al. just being lucky. hahahahah!

last night, mr rio had been such a dear t0 me. he sang me that lullaby s0ng bef0re i shut my eyes and off t0 sleep. i had a hard time teaching him that lullaby, and he made an eff0rt int0 practising it. hehe. sing it t0 me like again please, mr ri0? i l0ve the way y0u sang it t0 me! s0 sweet. :)

his sister's birthday is c0ming. sh0uld i attend or sh0uld i n0t attend her party? what gift shall i get f0r her? mp3? scho0l bag? i had a big laugh when mr ri0 suggests me t0 buy her just a plastic bag.. hahahahahahahah!

alhamdullilah.. i passed my public relati0ns. sheesh..

2009-12-01T16:44:00.004+08:00

t0day i was on an MC. i am unfit t0 attend t0 scho0l. d0ct0r hit my st0mach c0untless of times. i suffered fr0m gastric pain. its a n0 w0nder why i didnt have the mo0d t0 eat these few days. usually, i didnt skip dinner. but n0w, i had always skip it, which i did n0t kn0w why. i d0nt wanna stay this way anym0re. its unbearable. sheesh. :D

and..

happy 13th birthday, nurul aqilah!!

the y0ungest in the family.

the m0st pampered and childish one.

i l0ve y0u la. muacks.

h0pe y0u enj0y on y0ur burst-day.. :)

2009-12-01T01:49:00.005+08:00

yesterday, sent0sa was great. my day was go0d. the weather was go0d. but the saddest thing is, n0thing dro0ls me out. n0t even a single h0t hunks there. lols. spent time swimming in the sea f0r h0urs with friends. sadly, we didnt even managed t0 take any ph0t0s. yet, i managed t0 capture only this.

the night was still y0ung by then. we then decided t0 chill at viv0 ro0ft0p. the weather was like t0o syi0k. ate 'kacang cap jari' like h0w the banglas always d0. thanks t0 may0r wh0 did the peeling of peanuts f0r me. hehe. and the rest ate faddy m0m's chicken curry with bread. i dunn0 why i ended up with n0 appetite t0 eat. friends invited me t0 eat th0se of what they ate, but i kindly rejected it. in fact, i d0nt feel hungry at all..

cabbed back h0me since we all had the feeling of very the malas t0 trained back h0me. and oh yes, s0meone just called may0r, NABILAH.. ahah! sweet. ;)

had a chat with mr ri0 the m0ment i reached h0me.. c0mplaint ab0ut my unbearable st0mach while he was watching the match of chelsea and arsenal. the pain attacked me very hard that i to0k the opp0rtunity t0 walk ar0und the h0use. wat a stubb0rn girl i am. i n0e. hee.

at last, i cant take it and so0n lie on bed. talked t0 him like half dead. hahahah! but still, he managed t0 make me laugh. luckily, n0 one was ar0und me. or else i shall be labelled as 'orang giler' .. hahaha.

aights. i shall end here then. take care.

2009-12-01T01:37:00.006+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI ...!!!!

happy hari kambing !!

but yet, i didnt get the chance t0 watch them being slaughtered.

pity them.

menangis d0rang.

but still, i f0und them to0 cute.

especially in this picture.

cute ryte?

i miss them.

h0w c0uld they have g0ne after being slaughtered?

haha.

mr ri0 knew h0w upset i am.

he pr0mised t0 bring me t0 zo0..

just t0 see the kambings and the babo0n.

-_-

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

2009-11-24T18:19:00.006+08:00

i was having the hard time shitting in the t0ilet b0wl till i heard s0meone's screaming, "al0ng! al0ng! y0ur friend call." dalam hati, sape aje la ni orang p0t0ng steam ku.. lols.

a call fr0m.. BFF! she asked me t0 rush d0wn t0 scho0l n0w as theres an exam t0day. n0t t0mm0rr0w. she t0ld me that mr sunny ch0w was the one wh0 asked her t0 call me and asked me t0 rush d0wn t0 scho0l. i was left in a blank space. i went quiet out of sudden. i didnt even shit in a pr0per way that BFF suddenly asked me t0 rush d0wn. h0w the hell am i g0ing t0 rush d0wn? by the time if i reached scho0l, it was already to0 late..

and there she was laughing.. she pranked on me! wth! BFF, just y0u wait! and she added happily, "mr sunny ch0w aru ann0unce yang es0k CA exams p0stp0ne!"..

i swear i cant believe that i even have the cheeks t0 ask adawiyah, paulina, katherine and m0stly, the wh0le class.. am i dreaming? i think s0meone ab0ve the heavens threw us a lifeline..

and i screamed, YABEDABEDUUUUUUU~!!! da happy sgt larr katekan..

and i regret f0r n0t attending t0 scho0l t0day.. if i n0e, i surely will d0.. and this mr fadli had been f0rcing me t0 attend scho0l since m0rning.. to0 bad that i still refuse t0 g0 t0 scho0l despite getting an advise fr0m him.. i n0e, im a lil' stubb0rn.. f0r that, i ap0l0gized..

okay. thats it. i dunn0 what t0 p0st anym0re... :)

2009-11-21T01:03:00.005+08:00

it was raining cats and d0gs. i had pr0mised my friends that i will be meeting them at 1pm at Singap0re p0ly. as usual, im just a lil' bit late. just s0 y0u n0e, its partly because ive never felt this happiness bef0re that i finally had my achievement awards.

i saw a l0ts of pe0ple gathering there. especially th0se in sec0ndary scho0ls. n0t one, n0t tw0.. alm0st the scho0ls in the wh0le of singap0re. and i extremely fall f0r one particular sec0ndary guy wh0 to0k a picture f0r us.. if im n0t wr0ng, he was fr0m h0ngkah sec0ndary.. i just find him cute and ad0rable. hehe.

the pretty swan(yingsi) & the ugly duckling(me).

waiting patiently bef0re g0ing up t0 stage.
c0ngratulati0ns f0r winning the awards.

the SILVER awardees.
the mixture of ITE amk, Dover and clementi.
tay chun aik.

and guess what?

while i was busy ph0t0taking with my bunch of friends, a guy tapped on my sh0ulder..

saying,

" excuse me.. my friends w0uld like t0 take a ph0t0 with y0u.."

i g0es,

"huh?! y0ur friends? wh0?"

and he lead me t0 them..

my friends and miss brenda were like pushing me t0 agree with him and decide t0 take a ph0t0 with them.. i was all the way blushing like hell, which i dunn0 h0w t0 describe. never did i expect that 4 guys fr0m admiralty sec0ndary w0uld like t0 have a ph0t0graph with me. they eventually argue of standing beside me.. and i smile s0 bluntly.. it didnt turn out go0d. i n0e, im just plainly ugly.

and ive watched 2012 with aideel at d0wnt0wn east! at the sight of the theatre, i laughed. i feel like as if im in the lecture ro0m, studying.. wanna n0e why??? the table!! hahahahha! g0 figure it out!.

2009-11-18T20:51:00.007+08:00

i dunn0 why n0wadays i seemed t0 be to0 lazy t0 wear my c0ntact lens t0 scho0l. seri0us shit, which i dunn0 why. i d0nt care if i lo0ked shitty or ugly. and this is h0w i lo0k whenever im in scho0l. selenger kan??!! aku tau, bur0k nak mamp0s lagy ader.

and BFF was playing with my hair t0day. she feels my hair. she c0mmented that my hair is 'licin'(smo0th) that it was kinda hard t0 tie a sc0rpi0n. but i saw n0thing wr0ng in that! she did it great! *thumb ups.

my hair is silky and shiny which i didnt n0tice it. only n0w then i realised it.

BFF, muke k0n0n nye step CUTE. lols.

i w0ke up feeling very happy t0day. happy that im smiling fr0m ear t0 ear.. th0ugh i n0e that things d0nt g0 well, especially when y0u say n0thing at all. i kn0w.

when in anger, SMILE.

SPECIAL REQUEST.

2009-11-18T19:43:00.007+08:00

scho0l started at 1pm last tuesday. i had maself w0ken up very early and started t0 surf the net after d0ing s0me h0useh0ld ch0res.

i stepped int0 his bl0g and never did i expect that he had t0 leave singap0re that fast. he had t0 be out of t0wn as he g0tta participate in that w0rld cup asia of paintball in Kuala Lumpur.

luckily, it was never to0 late f0r me t0 wish him by leaving him a message, :

hey there, go0d m0rning.. ive read y0ur bl0g and i wanna take the opp0rtunity t0 wish y0u go0dluck f0r y0ur WCA. all the best and take go0d care of y0urself and make sure that y0u are back in one piece.

and he replies,

thanks tyra... d0nt w0rry i'll c0me back in one piece yeah.. haha.

and heres an0ther speech f0r him when he went out chilling with ketam, fad and baim.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

MAYOR!!! sayang awak banyak2. selamat jalan. k da. bye. yang benar, tyradengs.

and he g0es,

assalamualaikumwarahmatullahhiwabarakakatuuuuuuuuuuu....

sebagai seorang umat islam yang suke ad0lf hitler tapi benci siti rafizana, saya ingin mengucapkan banyak terima kasih kepada kamu.. Prett...!

sadly, im n0t the last pers0n t0 see him g0..

alth0ugh i kn0w i have wished y0u earlier and umpteen times, i will wish y0u again here, in facebo0k.

once again, have an enj0yable trip which will fill y0ur j0yness. h0pe t0 see y0u back with a SMILE on y0ur face. :)

2009-11-16T22:24:00.006+08:00

here i am updating my bl0g. im taking a sh0rt break right n0w.. ive just finished revising the chapter one, and all i d0 abs0rbed is only the definati0n of public relati0ns.

Public Relati0ns :
is deliberately, planned and sustained eff0rt t0 establish and maintain the
go0dwill and mutual understanding between an organisati0n and its public.

and.. m0ck test is this wednesday! oh, h0w the hell am i g0ing t0 abs0rbed alm0st everything? im left with tw0 m0re chapters.

allright. n0w, i shall begin with my rand0m p0st.

sape nak kahwin, angkat tangan sekarang!!

wh0a.. i saw s0 many hands rising! ni case semua da gatal sangat ekh? i guess if an adult were t0 ask this qns, that is h0w they will react.

think ab0ut it. i am turning 20 next year. a big fat number 20, with the number 2 digit at the fr0nt. in a matter of 5 t0 6 years perhap, i will be ready t0 sit gracefully on a dais with full of happiness and j0y.. chey! da start berangan larr ku nie..

and l0ts of qns had been playing thr0ugh my mind..
what will i be? wh0 is my future husband? will he be rich? or was he just an ordinary man wh0m i am really happy t0 share my life with? when will i start having babies? tw0, three or f0ur?

s0, whats n0w? am i ready t0 enter the life of an adultho0d? am i ready t0 leave my childho0d and my childish behavi0ur behind?

thinking of wedding dec0rati0n, i still wanted like th0se liverpo0l fan club did. oh g0sh! h0w many pe0ple must i invite ekh? lols.

okays.. i guess im putting up a SPECIAL campaigns.

t0 any eligible participants wh0 is interested, please c0ntact tyra at
1800-marry-me. this line is 1800. it is free, s0 d0nt w0rry ab0ut y0ur bill.. s0
yeah, d0nt f0rget t0 make an app0intment f0r this. i will n0t entertain th0se
fugly assh0les..

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

and i just realised that my hair had gr0wn l0nger! c0me, play with my hair. i likey likey.. hee~

2009-11-15T01:37:00.006+08:00

since y0ung, ive had always l0ve the thing called 'swimming'.

when i was 6, m0mma had enc0uraged me t0 take part in swimming less0ns. i had my less0ns at bukit bat0k swimming c0mplexs. it was such a great experience tt i learnt quite a number of swimming style. it was all thanks t0 my lecturer. he was the best lecturer ive ever had alth0ugh he was strict.

he taught me th0se breastr0kes, backstr0ke, armstr0ke, butterfly etc & m0re. every less0ns, i will never fail t0 have my goggles, bathing caps and swimsuit on and get ready t0 jump int0 the water. s0metimes, the less0n i had, had t0 put on a pyjamas suit instead of swimsuit. this is t0 make 'shift-fl0at'.

i had myself to0k part in the y0ungster swimming c0mpetiti0n and i w0n a medal f0r it. i was to0 excited that i had made m0mma pr0ud. but the saddest thing is that, ive f0rget t0 take the medal with me since i had shifted h0use t0 Chua Chu Kang. p0or medal.

yesh. thats explain why i had a br0ad sh0ulder.

Swimming tends to build l0nger leaner muscles. swimming w0rks out the sh0ulders a l0t.

2009-11-14T14:44:00.006+08:00

wo0ho0! gym is the best! i tried alm0st everything with BFF. feels like g0ing t0 d0 s0me w0rkout again. BFF, when again? and i l0ve bringing my shampo0 and bathe in that sh0wer place again. it feels s0 great. but n0thing can beat my h0me sh0wer. hahahah!

at last, i finally get t0 watch that paran0rmal activity.
just enc0untered the w0rst scenari0 ever in my life. y0u kn0w, i am at my weakest link.. i feel like as if i want to g0 h0me to my m0m.
it really freak me out tt i cant sleep alm0st the wh0le night. i only managed t0 shut my eyes only this m0rning. i better n0t tell y0u ab0ut it. s0, if y0u wanna n0e, please, g0 and catch it at any theatre. :)

and im s0rry BFF f0r letting y0u and b0ify t0 be seated far away fr0m us. the theatre is s0 full. and this aideel wanted t0 snatch away the c0uple seat. hehehe.

a picture that was taken decades ag0.

just ign0re it.

lols.

g0sh. im w0rking later and i am feeling s0 sleepy. it was only a few h0urs that i shut my eyes. it was just traumanism. if i n0e, i sh0uldnt have watch it. damn.
s0 pe0ple, if i were t0 faint anywhere, please, help me call 995.

hahahaahahaha.

and im s0 in l0ve with 'd0wn' ac0ustic!

but im sad.. urm.. anyone wh0 b0thers t0 be in l0ve with me, pretty pls? lols.

y0u started t0 l0ve her, but y0u left me hanging.

2009-11-13T00:17:00.012+08:00

theres an event in ITE simei yesterday. one r0und, and i ended it with care. haha.

so0n, i met up with my bunch of m0nkeys(ketam, fad, baim and may0r) at d0wnt0wn east. by the time i met them, they started talking ab0ut the paran0rmal activity. they watched it with0ut me! and n0w, im feeling the urge of watching it. alm0st everywhere, in bus, in scho0l, on the r0ad, the paran0rmal activity came fr0m the w0rd of m0uth. even my lecturer start talking ab0ut it. i cant take it n0 m0re. i must watch it.

hell yeah, i to0k part in s0me rand0m stupid games with them at pasir ris park yesterday. it was such an embarassing m0ment f0r all of us. yerps. we were all just plainly b0red, tts why we create such games. anyways, it was just a GAME. :)

and i only had my late BREAKFAST(mcFlurry) in the night. ouh, tts w0rst. haha.

oh, i just br0ke up with my b0yfriend. i am very upset. what i mean is, i didnt expect he w0uld want t0 do such a thing. i c0uldnt cry. c0z i n0e that i am a str0ng girl with only 6 pac on my betis and arms. So why must i cry??.
in fact, i am very angry. n0w i shall go f0r a killing spree.

RELAX la.

i am a lesbian. i just lied. h0w c0uld i have a b0yfriend when i l0ve lo0king at girls butts at its best. h0ws that? s0 scary.. hahahhaa

currently, i am n0w in scho0l. my handph0ne battery suddenly g0ne flat. i f0rget t0 charge. my last SMS is fr0m mr. baim.
and yes, im hitting the gym right after scho0l with BFF and aideel t0day. g0nna d0 a l0t of w0rkout.

BFF : aku tak leh terima ah.. next year, umur kiteorg da nak masuk 20 tahun...

tyra : ah2 shey.. mcm da tua shey! lagyp0n, theres s0 many resp0nsibilities we need t0 face.
KESIMPULANYA, ku p0n tak leh terima..

adawiyah : isk.. dari aku yg da nak mas0k 21
tahun, nakcakap ape??!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!

2009-11-11T13:19:00.005+08:00

HA-HA. omg. lo0ks like they were flo0ding my c0mments just on one particular LAME issue. i was just stating the fact that i l0ve the video m0ntage and there we are, DEBATING. liverpo0l fans debating wit man u fan in facebo0k. lols.

to view m0re, l0g 0n int0 my facebo0k pr0file. i swear that this was just a rand0m status. never did i expect s0me seems t0 like it and s0me t0 share their c0mments on it.

d0nt be offended by the c0mments yar if any of y0u were a MAN U fans. sheesh. :)

ok. n0w dr0p that t0pic. lets talk ab0ut s0mething else.
i had masef laughing with friends just n0w when i share with them ab0ut the times when i was a child. i swear it was damn funny and hilari0us when we kept thinking ab0ut h0w childish we were back then.

it was all started with me first. i was like asking,

"h0w was the feeling, if i were t0 have a little br0ther?
will they g0t influence by us, the eldest sister, which we will influence them t0 play s0me kind of d0lls like barbie d0lls, play "masak-masak" , ask them t0 put on our dress etc. mamp0s adik aku jadi bap0k ekh! "

and my friends went bursting int0 laughter. and tts where they started talking ab0ut the childho0d mem0ries where we used t0 play "masak masak", "cikgu cikgu", "d0ctor d0ct0r", playing "p0nd0k p0nd0k(creativity of our own tent in our crib)" with our own siblings.
n0t t0 f0rget, i even menti0n ab0ut watching p0wer rangers! up till n0w the tune of power rangers is still playing in my head! "g0 g0 p0wer ranger! na.. na.. na.. na.." lols.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. i merely cant st0p my laughing gas!

see, i bet if any of y0u were t0 think ab0ut y0ur childho0d days, im sure y0u will be laughing y0ur ass out. it was indeed childish i tell y0u! c0me t0 think of it, a qns p0p up in my mind. when did i suddenly change int0 the pr0cess of gr0wing up?" n0 m0re playing with t0ys. n0 m0re watching carto0n. the times i had in childho0d days had been put t0 a st0p. seri0usly, i d0nt even n0tice the sudden change in me. hmm..

and oh yah! have y0u peeps ever n0tice s0mething in me?

i actually d0 have a br0ad sh0ulder. aytes.. i will st0ry telling y0u ab0ut this in the next p0st once im free c0z right n0w, i had t0 get ready f0r w0rk. till here then. go0dbye.

2009-11-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

OMG. i cant blif this! i th0ught it was just a n0rmal malay wedding which shall be a b0ring ones since it was held in the h0tel of where im w0rking.. but i was wr0ng.
once i step int0 the ballro0m after briefing(r0le call), everywhere i saw is BIRD l0g0. and if y0u pe0ple want t0 n0e, its LIVERPOOL l0g0!!

the p0ster.

the menu.

the fr0nt page of the menu.

the menu, which was served c0urse by c0urse.

the ticket which they had to be received once they had their names registered.

OMG. co0l or what??!!!

i l0ve their vide0 m0ntage. s0 t0uching that i merely alm0st wanna drip a tears. it sh0ws on h0w they met each other, etc.. and the way they pr0p0sed each other with a ring, i went SPEECHLESS..

the w0rd, "never walk al0ne" is s0 meaningful. the guy managed t0 win her heart by saying that he w0nt let her walk al0ne and wish t0 be by her side always.

haiy0.. i will melt if ever a guy said this t0 me.. s0 t0uching.

i l0ve serving my table! they w0re liverpo0l shirt and even sang th0se liverp0ol s0ngs l0udly. s0 the kec0h-ness!

i even get t0 watched them perf0rmed the s0ng "lucky" on stage. s0 sweet!

t0 sagita, d0nt always keep saying y0u are b0red at w0rk larr.. i n0e y0u are just jeal0us. liverpo0l r0cks! hahaha!and i pitied larry. he was n0t a fan of liverpo0l and he need t0 be the VIP server. hahahahahahahah!!!!

aww.. h0w i wish my big day will be this way. will it happens? alamak. da start berangan larr ku nie..

2009-11-09T13:51:00.004+08:00

its been tw0 weeks that we did n0t meet each other.. apparently, its bc0z either one of us had been busy lately. he was busy w0rking, and at the same time, maybe dating with s0me chicks.
(berbulu telinga ku.. biase la.. die mane nak sayang ku lagy kan?.. haha) while me? am just stuck with my daily r0utine. scho0ling and w0rking.

well.. as usual, im always late and i had t0 be the one t0 blanje him lunch. yerpz. tts what we n0rmally d0! sape2 lambat, kena blanje.. and s0, we went t0 have our lunch at PUNCAK far east. yummy yum yum. (kening naek2. lols.)

we went t0 ION and ORCHARD CENTRAL as we wanna disc0ver whats new over there.
ION b0res me out. n0thing new there except f0r s0me branded stuffs. mcm larr ku ni kaya sangat nak beli barang2 kat situ. LOLs.
and i love ORCHARD CENTRAL ! this her0 of mine made me wanna pee by g0ing t0 the higher height. once high, he made me g0 an0ther higher. wth.
what i l0ve the m0st is, the ro0f gardens. it was quite windy there.

after that, we head t0 bugis. just because he didnt get t0 sm0ke a day, he wanna g0 shee-sha. and hell yeah, it was a great one. DOUBLE APPLE. and tts what i call the real shee-sha. made me high. haha. to0 stress that i did shee-sha m0re than him. and yes! i w0uld l0ve t0 learn th0se letter 'Oo' c0ming out fr0m the m0uth and als0, the heart shape fr0m y0u again. co0l larr..

we sat there like f0r several h0urs. c0z we did our shee-sha f0r alm0st 3 r0unds.

huhu~

and he drew my name with his creativity on the i-ph0ne.

s0 sweet. :)

m0re pictures shall be upl0aded once i received it fr0m him. :))

i am in a c0nfuse state right n0w. i dunn0 what i want.

i wanted t0 feel being in love like again. i wanna s0mone t0 h0ld me tight in their arms and never let g0.

2009-11-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

call me a midnight maid or wads0ever. c0z ive been d0ing the h0useh0ld ch0res late at night. i just simply cant stand the mess. i hate the sight of it. g0sh.

yesterday my day was spent at swissh0tel stamf0rd. it was one HELL experience. never did i expect that this was a last minute planning, and i was given a SHIT task. i had t0 handle th0se MAIN pe0ple of the event, and that is t0 co-ordinate with th0se emcees. i had the walkie-talkie in hand and as a result, it went faulty. it was making me s0 STRESS-ful that there were to0 many pe0ple talking in the walkie-talkie. whats m0re, they kept changing the pr0gramme which was n0t being f0ll0wed as plan. i wanted s0meone t0 replace me but hell yeah, n0b0dy dares.

KNN. why am i n0t ch0sen t0 be an USHERer just like what BFF and adawiyah were assigned? at least, just a simple task will d0. im s0 s0rry t0 say this, but im just letting out the anger in me.

this is while r0tting. wasting my time waiting f0r th0se emcees t0 turn up.

while waiting, i rec0rded th0se pe0ple d0ing their dry run.

i heard that the event was published in newspaper t0day.. but wh0 cares? i w0nt buy it. that event reminds me of th0se shitty duties that i was assigned.

ok. lets change t0pic. never will i g0 t0 such a blo0dy event anym0re.

yingsi birthday is c0ming so0n.. yingsi !! i shall buy y0u BRAs okay?
hahaha.
babi, i just cant wait t0 skate with y0u. ice skating! weeho0!

aytes. i g0tta head t0 bed n0w.. t0mm0rr0w, i had t0 w0rk after scho0l.
it g0nna be a hard day. take care..

i kn0w that im str0ng enough t0 mend,

and every time i feel afraid,

i will surely hold tighter to my FAITH..

2009-11-03T21:13:00.004+08:00

as y0u can see, ive deleted the p0st dated on the 28th oct0ber 2009. i d0nt feel the need t0 bl0g ab0ut it c0z it will just ruin my life. and i d0 s0me re-edit ont0 the p0st dated 29th oct0ber 2009. c0z i d0nt feel the need t0 bl0g ab0ut my entire life.

and.. ann's advise made me d0 s0me reflecti0ns.

click it t0 view larger image.

well.. it t0tally wakes my senses up.. thanks darl lennyro0.

i aint g0nna sh0w n0 weakness. i g0nna smile and tell the wh0le w0rld that im fine.

and oh b0y.. i d0nt regret l0sing y0u c0z i deserve better. F**K y0u! hahahahahaha!

t0mm0rr0w had t0 spent my day at swissh0tel = n0 scho0l?.. and hell yeah, i g0nna meet a l0t of t0p fam0us pe0ple there. wo0ho0! h0pe it will be a great day f0r me.

and im happy that i will be g0ing t0 singap0re p0ly t0 receive an award, which will be held on the 19th of n0vember. any ideas of where the hell is the audit0rium?? sister!!!!

ok. bye!

2009-10-29T10:56:00.008+08:00

its been l0ng since the last we met each other.. and at last, we went on with our s0 called 'dating'.. he was n0ne other than MAYOR..

theme f0r the day : ITE SCHOOL UNIFORM.

urm.. c0ol or what? haha.

Place : SAKURA.

where else can it be ryte except f0r that particular place where we first met each other.

Time : Anytime. lols.

this is may0r.

s0rry.. st0len picture.

he was to0 addicted t0 p.ramlee.

maybe thats why he p0se this.

haha.

Purp0se : dunn0. i guess n0b0dy at h0me is co0king f0r may0r and thats why we went t0 eat outside. or maybe we went there just t0 disturb th0se staffs wh0 were w0rking on that day..

s0 yeah may0r.. thanks f0r yesterday. it was great int0 meeting y0u up after s0 l0ng.. sheesh.. :D

2009-10-26T01:44:00.004+08:00

What i simply l0ve when being with y0u :

- y0ur laughter which brings j0y to my ears.
- your dedicati0n t0wards me, urging me t0 g0 f0r what i want in life.
- the laughter which always c0mes after my act of "mangk0kness".
- the hugs which brings warmth and c0mf0rt
- the s0ngs that we sang together.
- the eff0rt that y0u sh0uld always be there f0r me whenever i am d0wn.
- the way y0u wipe away my tears ever since the very first time i br0ke d0wn in fr0nt of y0u.

i never c0uld have th0ught i w0uld meet y0u.. i feel so serene being ar0und y0u..
you just l0ve to tease me and vice versa.. its h0w we c0mmunicate and its how we show that we truly trust each other.. and f0r that, i d0 appreciate it very, very much. thanks, once again.

10 reas0ns of why i hate myself.

SORRY FOR BEING AN ASS

SORRY FOR BEING ANGRY

SORRY FOR NOT LISTENING

SORRY FOR MAKING YOU STRESS

SORRY FOR NOT BEING THERE FOR YOU ALWAYS

SORRY FOR BEING FRUSTRATED

SORRY FOR BEING A MEAN

SORRY FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING

SORRY FOR MY MOOD SWINGS

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING

SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY

SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY

SORRYSORRYSORRY

and i shall never f0rget that y0u are always my HERO ever since the very first day i met y0u.

sweet en0ugh? -_- hahhahaha

nahs. it was s0mething that i cherished all the times.

2009-10-21T13:33:00.002+08:00

okays. im back, but only f0r a sh0rt while. just s0 y0u n0e, im busy with w0rks, scho0l assignments and pr0jects c0ming up so0n.. OMG. i feel s0 pressurized, with to0 many things p0ndering in my head. its a n0 w0nder d0ct0r says that im very weak. my b0dy g0t to0 h0t that it will get tired easily. alamak.. it just feel like a, bitch!

and wth? my attendance getting w0rst? are y0u sure, cher?
i remembered i did n0t attend scho0l just f0r a day, as i am plainly legathic.. i betta change my habits. i'll try, i guess..

g0t a mysteri0us call last m0nday at 0200am ++.
the caller g0es, "hello, ni tyra kan? b0leh kenal2?"
wtf. crazy fell0w called in the middle of the night..
i was tired at that p0int of time.
i just g0t back fr0m w0rk and need s0me sleep, and he was disturbing my peaceful sleep.

he was like asking, where i live..
where im studying at..
where im w0rking..
and he claimed that his name is ariff wh0 g0t my number fr0m a friend of mine called zul.
and i d0nt even n0e either zul n0r ariff!
i swear, it was fucking ann0ying.
i guess, he can f0rget ab0ut pranking a call t0 me.

i guess.. i shall end my p0st n0w.
i wanna get umpteen rest bef0re i head t0 w0rk later.
tata!

2009-10-16T21:19:00.010+08:00

y0u didnt l0ve me anym0re. :'(

the pr0blem lies is that,
b0th of us are mad f0r
NOTHING.

currently, i cant g0 t0 sleep..

b0y,
i d0nt wanna g0 to bed MAD at y0u,,

And

i d0nt want y0u to g0 to bed MAD at me..

how i wish that i am on y0ur mind. *yakdish!* wishful thinking.

I MISS YOU, badly.

2009-10-15T12:28:00.006+08:00

didnt p0st lately.

been busy f0r freaking days.

12 oct0ber 2009 marked the first day of scho0l after having such a l0ng break.

f0rm teacher was on MC.

time table d0 sucks big time.

start late and end late m0st of the time.

and i hate it.

ive g0t this weird teacher.

a strict teacher, yet fun.

weird, c0z of riding 'sco0ter' t0 scho0l.

n0t that m0t0r sco0ter, but its a kids' thing tt he ride on.

he was one of the unique teacher.

strict, c0z we as his student had t0 f0ll0w his rule.

g0sh.

during PE less0ns,

teacher made me d0 the shuttle run as im falling asleep while sitting in fr0nt of her.
she did that just t0 wake me up. pfft.
NAPHA test is drawing near!!
and i am n0t FULLY prepared.

my class c0nsists of 100% girls.
aku ni da mcm secretary cikgu!
odd one out. haha.FUN 1.

FUN 2.
and yesterday, im LATE!

t0t scho0l start at 8am and i reached scho0l an h0ur later.
-_- pfft.

ok. i g0tta st0p here. i must prepared t0 w0rk right n0w. tatas~!

2009-10-09T22:22:00.011+08:00

i g0t t0 see an experience on h0w pe0ple did the trailer and filming the m0vies in cathay.

it was such a co0l place that i can watch it f0r free even th0ugh it was just a sh0rt peri0d.

believe it or n0t, aideel was indeed a HERO.

he played a great r0le.

thats why i envy him, a l0t.

he had saved a girl fr0m the escalat0r.

her l0ng skirt g0t stuck in the escalat0r.

it was merely such a deep stuck that n0 one there was able t0 rescue her.

the pe0ple passing by there, st0od by one c0rner and watched the scene with0ut offering any help.

and aideel had t0 be the one t0 save a life!

seri0usly, im pr0ud of him!!!

it was never a waste that he bec0me a firefighter.

sheesh.. :D

firefigter is n0t only putting off the fire, but als0 being able t0 rescue pe0ple fr0m any harm/danger.

& as pr0mised, ive had upl0aded the pictures of the p.0.p oh!

haha.

this is md.aidil.
fatimah's fren.

and this is.. my HERO !!
md.aideel..
face expressi0n to0 SERIOUS.
muke takde seny0m punye olang!! hahahaha.

ign0re my face. this was taken by imah.

she was such a bad ph0t0grapher! oops. hahaha!

a sh0t with his m0mma.

again, his face is to0 much of SERIOUS-ness.

finally, a sh0t of the b0th of us.

and n0w, i sh0uld pr0udly said that md.aideel had finally graduated fr0m his c0urse that he had c0mpleted it in jalan bahar civil defence academy!

well d0ne! keep up the go0d w0rk. *thumbs up*

im tired. seri0usly tired.
n0 one will be able t0 understand

the situati0n that im facing.
NO ONE.

if only..

i can get away fr0m that assh0le,

only then my mind will be at peace.

2009-10-08T17:53:00.008+08:00

SENTOSA OUTING WITH THE GALS.

guys are pr0hibited.

this was our first outing of being to0 sexy, naughty & bitchy US.

its the time where we reveal our fats.

g0sh. i guess mine is the w0rst of all.

t0ld y0u s0, i had began t0 eat like a BEAST after raya..

be it a junk fo0d or wads0ever.

s0 yeah, lennyro0(cuzzie), y0u and i have an app0intment.

y0u sh0uld n0e what i meant.

days spent dr0wning and sun-tanning under the h0t sun with yingsi and ana.

adawiyah cant j0in us due t0 PMS. in fact, she became the ph0t0grapher of the day.

as a result, my skin had tanned.

ana and yingsi, d0nt jeal0us. HAHAHA.
and my dear HERO was being to0 sweet this m0rning.

he w0ke me up by a cell away, just t0 have an early breakfast with him..

thats to0 sweet of him t0 make his way all the way t0 jur0ng p0int after his dismissal at w0rk at ALEXANDRA..

and we had our breakfast meal at banquet.

sheesh. :D

2009-10-05T23:18:00.010+08:00

ever heard of a phrase,

"kalau da cantik, cantik giler. kalau buruk, buruk abis."

yesh. they are b0th me.

fall in LOVE with me please?

cause im IRRESISTABLE.

been days that i had n0t been updating.

ive g0t l0ts t0 say. but dunn0 where t0 start.

f0r the wh0le damn week, ive been busy w0rking in h0tel.

and see this?

during OT, it always have t0 be the same pers0n that i had t0 face. HAHA.

to0 tired t0 describe the feeling of tiredness.

especially the tw0 days straight of w0rking fr0m m0rning till the next m0rning.

alm0st give up.

b0dy were aching everywhere.

and..

on the 1st of oct0ber 2009,

it was the day where aideel had his passing out parade. POP oh!

th0ught of n0t attending in the ferst place c0z BFF and inah were n0t there t0 acc0mpany me.

instead, last minute, i went ALONE.

gara2 taknak aideel meraj0k nye pasal. haha.

n0 larr.. its the th0ught that i must be there f0r him whenever he was in need.

c0incidencely, imah was there. met her at the civil defence academy at 6pm.

she wanted t0 meet her AIDIL.

ok. same pr0n0uncing in names but different pe0ple.

imah -> MD AIDIL

me-> MD AIDEEL

sp0t the difference?

went int0 the place with AIDIL's family.

well.. his family was sp0rting i c0uld say..

alamak.. sampai jek, lagu raya dah.. haha.

titis airmata japz.. l0ls.

and the preview was co0l i c0uld say!

nice j0b firefighters!

fr0m left t0 right

aidil's sista(i f0rg0t her name), imah, ME, aidil's y0ungest sister and his m0mma.

sh0t one.

sh0t tw0.

the anak daras.

when the emcee pr0n0unce the audience t0 g0 t0 the fr0nt t0 wear th0se badges and wipe away their sweats, i went gabra sia! c0z im ALONE.

and there i saw aideel's parents.

sho0k hands with them and als0 to0k s0me pictures to0.

picture will be upl0aded once i received it.

when it c0mes t0 refreshment time, aideel asked me t0 j0in with his parents.

i went speechless already.

t0t of eating with imah, but dunn0 where she disappeared with her AIDIL.

and so0n, fire drill alarms.

in a rush, aideel to0k his helmet and fall in in his squad.

i was l0st.

luckily, saw his parents..

i end up being with them since imah was n0where t0 be f0und.

and the pr0gramme ended just like that.

haiy0!

and his parents insisted t0 send me h0me.

terima kasih, makcik dan pakcik.

saye amat menghargainya.. :)

and...

i f0und this on facebo0k!
was tagged by kak ct.
OMG. i cant believe that this is ME.
enj0y laughing!

and im satisfied with my results.

my GPA sho0t higher.

h0pe t0 d0 well f0r the final.

allright. i wanna rest n0w.

i am n0w having the giddiness in me.

i guess im struck with th0se headache again.

liking a pers0n is one thing.

missing s0meone is an0ther thing.

l0ving him is ONE big thing.

2009-09-27T13:36:00.008+08:00

Sheesha-ing with the SAKURA's girls, except BFF.
r0ughly, it was my idea.. it was a great one c0z it was a girls' day out.
i had BFF t0 acc0mpany me. and she was go0d as she listen t0 what i say.
make new friends as they were my friends to0.
and she did just that.
l0ls.

bef0re sheesha-ing, we headed t0 t0ngseng t0 had our lunch.
inah had t0 be the one t0 treat me and BFF teh peng as she was the one being late int0 meeting us.
anyway, thanks babe. hee.

here is the picture we to0k..

SAFRINAH.
BFF(farhaana) & inah

BFF!

like m0nkey's business. hahaha

this is m0re t0 chimpazee. l0ls.

happily sheesha-ing

grape flav0ur.

sm0ke c0ming out fr0m my n0se..

i lo0k fat here. g0sh.

see.. i t0ld y0u..
she very the peramah habis.

sh0t 1 : with aisyah.

sh0t 2 : with armeeza.

the sakura babes.

busy entertain anak KELVIN. hahahahahaha

inah & meeza

aisyah & inah.

the babes p0trait.

i had fun th0ugh.
j0king ar0und with them had never fail t0 make my day a cheerful ones.
thanks babe.

lets plan an0ther great outing again yah babes, including BFF!
sheesh.. :D

2009-09-26T06:57:00.008+08:00

oh g0sh! what went wr0ng? our c0nversati0n seem t0 be w0rsen this m0rning while talking on the ph0ne. it was great at first, talking ab0ut h0w we met each other and h0w i ended up calling him my HERO.

maybe it was my fault. f0r that, i g0tta admit. c0z ive t0ld him that i d0nt want t0 talk t0 him. d0 y0u n0e h0w much y0u had sp0il my mo0d ever since y0u talk t0 me that way? d0 y0u? and wh0 teach y0u t0 put d0wn the ph0ne just like that? its kinda rude and i never teach y0u that way my dear..

if only y0u c0uld understand what my heart trying t0 say.. but haiz.. i guess it will never happen as it will never w0rk.

till here then. its already 7.16am and i still cant sleep. i d0nt wish t0 see our b0nds went who0sh int0 the drain. it was such an heartache. haiz.

hear this. it was quite meaningful. with english lyrics to0. only then, y0u will understand what im trying t0 say..

im s0rry f0r the sh0rt p0st. i d0nt want t0 say much and i d0nt feel the mo0d t0 w0rk t0day. :'(

2009-09-25T01:29:00.011+08:00

i had my days w0rking my ass off after the 2nd day of raya. it feel s0 great by having my time being occupied. indeed, one of th0se day, i went t0 have a lepak sessi0n at civic center right after w0rk. it was fun th0ugh as a result that i ended up taking a cab h0me. :) last train ended lia0.

credits t0 hafizzuddin f0r taking my s0l0 picture.

candid.
im h0lding a handph0ne. n0t cigarrettes.

d0nt stare at me in that way larr.. l0ls.

HAJAR !!

and lastly, happy 16th birthday hafiz!

* up next, shee-sha sessi0n with c0lleagues. its the BEST, i w0uld say..

2009-09-22T13:16:00.009+08:00

i better start bl0gging right n0w, or else i will start dragging due t0 the feeling of tired-ness and lazi-ness in me. URGH. i dunn0 h0w t0 begin with.. i guess my english g0nna r0tt so0n. BANG! c0z ive been talking malay to0 much. maybe? i dunn0.
but damn. im still sucks in it, if y0u really want t0 n0e.

allright. maybe i just start with mixed language can? s0rry if my w0rds d0esnt c0nvince y0u peeps.. n0w, let me begin with SYAWAL.

HARI RAYA, as you kn0w, is t0 mark the end of the Ramadhan (fasting month) and this year, i will appreciate it m0re as i n0w kn0w what its like t0 g0 fr0m dawn t0 dusk with0ut fo0d, drinks, etc. ive had my first taste of rendang, ketupat and serunding.. y0u see.. ive been eating like a beast ever since raya had started. and m0m's rendang is the BEST ! i l0ike!

HARI RAYA I

qyla, the PAMPERED sister.
feeqah, the one wh0m i called her the giraffe.
sh0t one.

sh0t tw0.

inc0mplete with0ut daddy.

COMPLETE.

m0mma and daddy.

anak-anak jasmani & junainah.
the y0ungest g0nna be taller so0n.
im n0t j0king.

m0mma t0mpang keturunan anak dara.

my family.

with auntie zaharah.

HARI RAYA II

daddy! y0u sp0il the p0rtrait. y0ur eyes!

additi0nal of mak, bapak & at0k.

its time that i had less c0llecti0n. bo0ho0. :'( my age had already reaching 19years old.
anyway, thanks f0r the wishes t0 th0se wh0 SMS-es me, FB and email. h0pe y0u all had a great day. its the time where y0u had t0 spent with family and friends t0 seek f0rgiveness. Dari itu, saya inging menyusun sepuluh jari tangan dan kaki untuk meminta ampun dengan seikhlas-ikhlasnya dan juga sepenuh-penuhnya.. Halalkan sajalah semua makan minum.

till then, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDELFITRI !!!!!

2009-09-21T12:21:00.006+08:00

selamat hari raya t0 all !!!!

take go0d care of y0urself and h0pe y0u enj0y y0ur day on a very special day.
"maafkanlah kesalahan seseorang. sem0ga dapat hapuskan segala d0sa-d0sa mereka..."

and.. dress up well, girls! its time to put on that make up, beautiful access0ries, new cl0thes and also, the high heels. hehe.

keampunan ku p0h0n sekiranya ku yang berd0sa..

2009-09-19T00:37:00.006+08:00

planned t0 head geylang with aideel t0day.. but instead of geylang, we headed t0 bugis since he wanted t0 meet nazrul and reyza t0 have s0me shee-sha sessi0n with them. bef0re having our shee-sha sessi0n, we met them at t0ng seng t0 break our fast t0gether. the service were like fucking sl0w. haiy0.

met my ex-classmates there. FADHLI!! LINA!! omfg. we were like hugging each other like n0 one business. its the fact that we had n0t seen each other f0r sucha a l0ng time and i cant deny that i really d0 miss them! d0 keep in t0uch yarr my dearies!!!

currently, n0 ph0t0 taken during the shee-sha sessi0n as the place given were to0 dark. s0me act like as if they were very HIGH. hees.. and reyza's j0ke was fucking hilari0us! HAHAHAHAHA.

yawn.. im s0 sleepy n0w. but i just cant g0 t0 sleep.
just s0 excited right n0w.. c0z i received an SMS fr0m ketam saying,
"YEAH!!! aku da tak single lagy!!"
and of c0urse, im smiling fr0m ear t0 ear.. im happy f0r her. *CONGRATS ketam*
have an everlasting with y0ur dear2..
i dunn0 why ive been the one jumping2 when i heard that news. haha.
im just am happy f0r her.
remember what may0r says t0 y0u?? d0nt be a FLIRT anym0re.

h0w time flies to0 fast. so0n, i g0nna eat like a BEAST.

2009-09-18T00:59:00.004+08:00

its been years ive been m0ving on with0ut y0u. but t0day, i saw y0ur face and kept on thinking ab0ut y0u and the pain that y0u left me suffer all al0ne. this irritates me. urgh. i th0ught i w0uld never ever see y0u again, but the w0rld is SMALL. very small indeed..
i believe that i am a str0ng surviv0r. never will i shed a tears f0r y0u again and thats it. i d0nt want y0ur face t0 stay put in my mem0ry again. i might have m0ved on and learn my less0n, but it made me a better pers0n who is afraid of things like this..

i had my day return back t0 sakura yesterday. after a l0ng break after exam, i finally decide t0 make a c0meback. haha. alm0st everyone th0ught that i have g0ne MIA(Missing In Acti0n) as they had n0t seen me f0r such a l0ng time. and this CHEF g0es..

chef : hey girlfriend! l0ng time n0 see y0u! where y0u g0? g0t miss me?..
ME : hey hell0!! haha. i g0 study la.. where else? miss y0u? y0u y0urself never miss me, then want ask me t0 miss y0u ah? n0 shame!
chef : d0nt say like that la girlfriend.. of c0urse i miss y0u larr.. y0u c0me here.
ME : huh? what y0u want sia?
chef : COME..

(heading t0wards him..)

chef : take out y0ur handph0ne..
ME : HUH??!!! f0r what???
chef : take out..

and he g0es...

sh0t 1 : he lo0k a bit BLUR. *failed*

sh0t 2: OMG. this lo0ks s0 wr0ng.. *failed*

sh0t 3 : ah.. better en0ugh. *passed*

again, im the HOTPLATE w0man.. hahah!

and t0day.. i did n0t attend f0r w0rk as im d0wn with flu and a slight headache. i did wear a face mask f0r my safety. i d0nt want t0 spread the germs t0 the others in the family.. hygiene is imp0rtant!! LOLs.

instead, i spring clean the h0use and started t0 weave th0se ketupats. i didnt even want t0 take an ample rest. *haha. i n0e im stubb0rn.. d0nt waste y0ur saliva t0 advise me.. c0z thats what i am!

ive tried to0 hard t0 f0rget y0u..

2009-09-14T08:52:00.011+08:00

im s0rry f0r the lack of updates. i was away, ALONE. anyb0dy missing me? raise y0ur hands up n0w!! wh0a.. i saw a l0t.. hahas. *perasan.
nah.. i just need s0me time t0 be ALONE as i am seri0usly had l0st my way which i end up being in NOTHING. no one direct me the right path. my heart was t0tally cl0se. all i c0uld d0 is, t0 wait f0r the ones wh0 can find the key and unl0ck my heart. let the light find the darkness. thats what im h0ping f0r. *praying hard

last thursday, i had my day spent with inah, teruna afiq, zuraidi, nizzam, zeana and mummy at geylang. survey f0r c0stumes. n0thing interest me. every year, its the same thing.. agree? haha.

bef0re that, inah and i break our fast at bugis pastamania. wh0a. i feel heaven eating th0se fo0d. feel like eating there again. anyone?

checking out thru the menu.

my spaggeti.

currently, last saturday, i am t0tally pissed off. i d0 n0t want t0 elab0rate m0re. only my HERO n0es it. haha.
f0rgive and f0rget. n0 use of argueing. n0 use of raising our t0ps.
c0z partly, we had finally understo0d one and each others' flaws.. and i ap0l0gised, if i did really dissapp0int/turn y0ur day d0wn aytes? *kneel d0wn*

since the day had turned int0 a bad marshmell0w, i went out with my dearest girlfriend and her family. we headed t0 geylang till late night. it was FUN f0r just having her ar0und me t0 make my day a happy ones.

fo0d after 830 pm.

babat takde, lembu dan daging p0n jadi larr..

since ive had 100 d0llar n0tes with me, i ended up buying a raya c0stume f0r 99bucks, ella g0es, KA-CHING ah! l0ls.

buke puase ber-jemaah di dalam train. haha. SEMPAT.

ella just had her hair d0ne. while me? waiting f0r the right time.

i l0ve her nenek! she was super CUTE. and ella... y0ur nenek left her hankerchief and her 's0-called-fan' in my bag. i shall return it t0 y0u the next time i meet y0u aytes and als0, please tell nenek that im already missing her..

UGLY me.

okays. i lo0k like chee-bye here.

menjeng nye... hahaha.

thanks ella. f0r the day that i can finally interact with y0ur nephew. o0ps. my fiancee t0 be larr.. haha. its the day where we spent m0st our time till m0rning. luckyly, i had mak and bapak t0 fetch me. or else, i might be g0ing h0me by taxi. the days that i cann0t f0rget. thanks once again, ella. sheesh. :D

this m0rning, alm0st no0n, i headed t0 geylang. urm.. like again???.
this time r0und, with my m0m. m0m n0es h0w cho0sy i am..
hmm.. s0 yah, ive b0ught my sh0es, bag and a c0stume f0r raya. i even b0ught aideel a raya suit t0 match it with mine, as we had already planned in mind that we will wear the same c0l0urs f0r this raya..

and WTH. he had g0t what ive b0ught f0r him already. haiy0.
s0, instead of giving it t0 him, i gave it t0 my dad SINCERELY..

and yes my dear HERO.. it had been already tw0 weeks we had n0t met each other.. and y0ur tw0 lighter, was still safe in my bag. they had been go0d. they listen t0 what i say. l0ls. -_-

haa. just a rand0m phrase just t0 say that, I MISS YOU, badly..

2009-09-10T03:16:00.001+08:00

okays. i had my OT just n0w, and right n0w, im in fr0nt of sister's lapt0p screen. freaking tired. TIRED, n0t because of w0rk. but its because of letting my eyes d0ing the winking exercise a l0t of times. sickening ah! i prefer wearing FRESHKON. i hate ENCORE t0 the max! f0r y0ur inf0rmati0n, its ab0ut the current c0ntact lens that im wearing.

ENCORE made my eyes g0ne w0rst. i to0k the lens out of my c0rne0 and visi0n-blur surr0und me. this was the first time i felt s0 UNEASY in w0rking. i kept on squeezing my eyes everywhere i g0. the managers f0und it to0 cute which i did n0t n0e why.. haha. maybe i kept on squeezing real hard that it made my eyes grew smaller just t0 define the c0rrect object. haiy0. w0rst c0me t0 w0rst, i cant even rec0gnise that a SPRITE had been served t0 the guest. g0sh! if i had really kn0wn the situati0n that is g0ing t0 happen, i w0uld have bring al0ng my specs n0 matter h0w ugly i lo0k with it. haiya! what a bad day, oh man.. just n0t my luck.

daddy, why are y0u behaving this way? it br0ke my heart. im t0tally dissapp0inted in y0u. y0u gave me the c0ld sh0ulders. tell me,what sin have i d0ne t0 y0u? ive l0nged f0r y0ur l0ve. but y0u treated me like as if im y0ur enemy. y0u kept raising y0ur t0p, which i did n0t kn0w why. and im still hurt on h0w y0u hit me without any specific reas0n. why daddy? why? :'(

Urgh. EMO! i betta st0p here! lets talk ab0ut s0mething go0d.

090909. the day i finally put a st0p on my burden. thanks t0 my daily injecti0n. i think i need it n0 m0re! sheesh! and im glad that ive finally c0mpleted all of it. everything was manageable! fuh!

and yeah.. s0meone(insertname) read my bl0g and c0mplaint that the f0nt in my bl0g will hurt (insertname) eyes.. well, maybe s0meday when im very much free, then i will t0uch up my bl0g. n0t f0r n0w. the reas0n is because im SUPER lazy, y0u see.. hahaha!

an h0ur m0re t0 sahur. i betta g0 t0 bed right n0w or else my eyes w0nt be cured. gdnight readers!

MOTIVATION

2009-09-01T15:40:00.005+08:00

damn, the weather d0 sucks. it was freaking c0ld that i feel like as if im one of the eskim0s living in the iglo0. i wanted t0 make fire, but i cant. there was neither stick n0r st0ne t0 make it sparks. oh my! am i talking ab0ut the flinst0ne'c century? ya-beh-da-beh-do0o0o0!

ok. st0p it larr tyra. CRABs, o0ps! NO. its CRAPs.

currently, i d0 have tw0 lighter in my bag. one is red CRICKET, and the other, is green NRL. tyra sm0king?

hehe. i actually g0t that fr0m a firefighter(inserthisname) last sunday. LOLs. he asked me t0 keep it f0r him. n0t one, but tw0. i bet his intenti0n is, "set fire in y0ur h0use". with this, he think he can c0me and rescue/save a life in my h0mie. wakakakaaka! mentang2 larr abang firefighter, mau eksyen larr tuh! isk.

haha. n0 larr.. actually the reas0n is, he was n0t all0wed t0 bring any lighter t0 camp and that was why he asked me t0 keep it f0r him. sheesh.

eh?? why am i here? why am i bl0gging when im supp0se t0 mug f0r my exams? LOLs. i guess i need a break. that was why im bl0gging. or maybe im already getting lazy f0r exams. i feel like taking a gun and bang! let the bullet sho0t off my head.

nemind. im still alive n0w. and let me recap s0me of what ive learned yeah..

hmm... maybe i just start with unit 12 of OA??

IMPORTANCE OF RECORD MANAGEMENT/FILING SYSTEM

It is the w0rk of arranging inf0rmati0n and c0rresp0ndence tradit0nally called filing.

"Rec0rd Management" c0mm0nly used as in other media such as diskettes, c0mpact disks and optical media which are used f0r transfer, st0rage of data and inf0rmati0n.

The imp0rtance of rec0rd management or filing system lies in a systematic st0rage of inf0rmati0n s0 that they can be retrieve easily and quickly f0r reference purp0ses.

ok.. BANG! i guess im better off DEAD. c0z i cant remember a thing after that. muahahaha!

bt0l larr orang ckp.. semangat sekejap jek.. tts what i am. oh exams! can y0u please quickly end??? haiz! s0meone!! i need a MOTIVATION badly. huhuhuhu~

and last, but n0t least.. TAG are welc0me.

2009-08-24T13:50:00.002+08:00

okays. let me start off with my life st0ry n0w.
basically, ab0ut WORK.

w0rking at the h0tel sucks big time. i had my day w0rk with BFF and the rest were IMPACT staff the other day. th0se impact staffs were like d0t.. d0t.. d0t.. which i had n0 c0mment t0 say.. the backlane was very MESSY than bef0re.. and the manager asked me and BFF t0 have our OT t0 tidy up the backlane and d0 th0se set-up. and whats m0re, the next day, i am scho0ling. guess h0w tired i am? VERY.

and SAKURA.. i just had my hand burnt due t0 the h0tplate. i am in the h0tplate secti0n ALONE. evrytime kena assign t0 h0tplate. n0thing change. the restaurant were in full h0use. and i had n0 manp0wer t0 help me and im left with n0 ch0ice. n0w, i had myself being fear oredi. i d0nt wanna t0uch th0se h0tplane. it making me surr0und with ph0bia. g0sh.

currently, i am n0w missing th0se old staffs. seri0usly, i d0. when can i meet them again?haiz..

EXAMS.

it was r0und the c0rner and i had to0 many chapters t0 c0ver up. i shall be on hiatus f0r weeks.. wish me luck.

haiz.. its been raining cats and d0gs ever since yesterday. the weather is c0ld and i feel like d0zing off like theres n0 t0mm0rr0w. haha.

s0, f0r n0w, let me bid y0u go0dbye. i g0tta d0 my stuffs right n0w.

SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH PUASE kepada semua umat ISLAM di seluruh dunia!

2009-08-19T00:49:00.004+08:00

i better start bl0gging n0w bef0re it is to0 late. haha.

yes, i kn0w. m0st of my friends were sn0ring and here i am, letting my fingers t0 start pressing th0se letters. my fingers were s0 tempting that i cant hardly make it stray away fr0m the keyb0ards.

t0day, w0rk is kinda OK f0r me. theres an event g0ing on. it inv0lved the TEACHERS in woodlands and MP of wo0dlands. i guess this was their s0-called dinner and dance functi0n. and guess what? i was assigned t0 serve the VIP f0r the day. just like h0tel, i managed t0 capture the same techniques t0 serve them. c0urse by c0urse and end up, they st0pped me t0 put th0se fo0ds on the table as they said that they wanted t0 get their own fo0d by themselves.

and jyeah. im using th0se walkie-talkie with me all ar0und. quite tr0ubles0me. c0z y0u will hear many different v0ices talking t0 y0u. haha. the first step i talked on the walkie-talkie was, "RENATO GILER. RENATO BUAYA." and he replied, y0u shuddup. HAHAHA.

ok. i bet s0meb0dy g0nna g0t angry.
armeeza, inah, dun be jeal0us ok? c0z i n0e y0u all will be. hahahakz!

this is RONNIE. he was the h0ttest ingredients that the girls in the outlet admired. pe0ple like armeeza and inah were just crazy ab0ut him. which idk why.. or maybe, lo0k at his eyes.. n0 w0nder they were crazy ab0ut him. hahahahah!

* im s0 in l0ve with mariah carey. especially the s0ng, OBSESSED. "oh b0y, why are y0u s0 obsessed with me?" maybe im just plainly jeal0us of her. she can sing. she g0t the lo0ks. she g0t the bo0bs and the sexy butt and als0, she didnt lo0k like she was aging. and yeah, i had n0ne of what she had. s0 h0w n0w? g0 f0r b0t0x? i wanna expand my bo0bs and butt. LOLs.

till here then. go0dbye.

2009-08-17T00:33:00.002+08:00

PORTRAITS OF MY FRIENDS.
TYRA[ME]. SUHAYLAH. FARHAANA. YINGSI. KETAM. AIDEEL. MAYOR.

i think my drawing is bad. i d0 sucks in it. and i guess i can never be back t0 square one again. :(

2009-08-15T15:19:00.004+08:00

this is just an outdated picture . a picture that makes me lo0k kinda ugly. with0ut eyeliner and mascara on. hair lo0ks kinda 'masai' nak mamp0s. l0ls. i remembered n0t attending t0 scho0l f0r the nati0nal day celebati0n. takde semangat larr nak celebrate. s0, i sn0red at h0me. rabak pe? hahaha. but instead, i went f0r my CCA thingy later on. i went t0 make singap0re's flag t0gether with ah pa and ah ma.. they just made me remember of my late ah ma and ah pa. i miss them. they were just simply ad0rable. sheesh. :D

okays. yesterday, i had my days spent with aideel and janna. janna just g0t back fr0m scho0l. fr0m d0ver t0 ch0a chu kang. we waited f0r her t0 reach and t0gether, we went t0 have our dinner at KFC. after that, we went t0 catch the m0vie where g0t gh0st??? haha. funny. i can still laugh ab0ut the one wanted the bra t0 be in red c0l0ur and had mickey m0use designed on it. co0l or what?! haha.

okays. this is als0 an outdated picture. i am currently feeling SAD. sad of what m0mma had t0ld me a st0ry. i cant say much. im just speecless. i had t0 be str0ng facing all th0se obstacles. i just need s0me time t0 be ALONE.

2009-08-12T00:39:00.003+08:00

i just g0t back fr0m w0rk right n0w. ive just finish up my wash-up and im n0w eating bread with egg while bl0gging. hungry like fcuk. hahah!

apparently, i am still c0mplaining ab0ut my aches. i dunn0 why. its damn painful that i cant resist. ive sh0wed BFF th0se sw0llen marks. BFF was feeling kinda disgust lo0king at th0se. she was afraid that i might be the one being p0ssessed. what a remarks! n0nsense. l0ls.

guess what?? i finally g0t t0 meet with the singap0re and china nati0nal fo0tballer just n0w. ella! i dapat berb0al dgn shah alam tau!! heheh! takm0 jeal0us ah k.. i even saw baihaqqi.. well.. m0stly, all of them in the team were present there.. and the ar0ma of their perfumes.. fuyo0.. made my leg g0 jelly!! *cair abis*

wh0a.. i felt kinda lucky, but n0t really.. c0z i wanna meet liverp0ol. they were just my fav0urite fo0tball fans that i cant denied. especially t0rres. i wanna meet him in pers0n!

g0t t0 w0rk again in a few h0urs time.. again and again, i had t0 meet th0se nati0nal fo0tballer again. see them again! l0ls.

alamak. sanggup ku bl0g kerana hanya unt0k fo0tballer??? must be crazy. wakakakaka!

2009-08-11T12:44:00.009+08:00

did n0t attend t0 scho0l t0day due t0 the ache-ness of my b0dy. it was damn painful that i can merely cried. its unbearable. all i had t0 d0 is, lie on my mattress f0r freaking l0ng h0urs.

s0rry f0r n0t updating my bl0g. i n0e ive been aband0ning it, which is due t0 the tiredness and laziness in me. GOSH. i am n0w having th0se sw0llen blue-black marks on me. it had been tw0 t0 three days straight that im w0rking my ass off in SAKURA. ive been assigned in h0tplates during th0se days.. my wh0le b0dy d0 sweat like hell. but its great y0u n0e.. ive been making friends with FIRE. asking the fire n0t t0 give me any tr0uble. HAHAHA.

and once i g0t h0me, i will never fail t0 have a great bath and quickly went off t0 lala land after that.

indeed that once y0u pespired a l0t, this will burn off y0ur fats. just like what inah said, " lau hari hari jadi runner, c0nferm badan leh kurus.. " haha. what a cute phrase she q0utes..

and n0t f0getting, HAPPY BELATED 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!..
i n0e, it was already to0 late f0r me t0 wish..
ive watched the firew0rks during the preview with aideel.
it was awes0me i c0uld say, alth0ugh it was just a view fr0m marina barrage.

and yes, at0k.. get well so0n.. have a great rest ya..

yesterday i was being to0 sweet t0 sent aideel off t0 his camp. exactly. and bef0re he bo0k in, we catched a m0vie at l0t one. it was damn hilari0us. just like transf0rmers, G.I.JOE features all kinds of c0mbat figures and high-tech vehicles that fire a y0ung b0y's imaginati0n. i sh0uld rate it 4/5. better g0 watch it!
i g0t a call fr0m aideel last night.. bc0z of him singing this lullaby s0ng, i finally fall asleep in peace. HAHA. indeed, i sang al0ng with him to0. y0u pe0ple, if y0u all j0lly well cant sleep, sing y0ursef this, and i guarantee that y0u peep shall sleep in PEACE. l0ls.

replies t0 tag :

Hana : thanks babe. it was just a picture that i played editing it just f0r fun. haha. yala. she cheated my feelings. damn sad shey.. made me suspend.

izat : yeaps. lets pray f0r the best. and y0u, f0rget me n0t.. HAHA.

raihanHazwani : ouh.. fulltime.. kau da try interview kat ne?

ella : y0u are welc0me. i l0ve y0u to0, baby! *with l0ts of l0ve.

okays. d0ne. i am heading off t0 w0rk right n0w. go0dbye.

2009-08-07T00:37:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ella kush sayang !!!

its been tw0 days that we finally went out and im glad that we were back t0 what we used t0 be. after all th0se drifting apart f0r dunn0 h0w many(only g0d n0es), we never fail t0 catch up with each other again. maybe, just put the blame on me. i was to0 fucking busy that i am unable t0 spent time with y0u. f0r that, i w0uld like t0 ap0l0gise and i h0pe that y0u understand my situati0n, my dear..

this girl here had just turned 19 years old.. and yeah ella.. d0 y0u n0tice that? did y0u? its 19 babey! 19! haha. and we were n0 l0nger the girl wh0 used t0 be on our own self anym0re. just s0 y0u n0e, y0u g0t me and i g0t y0u.. same2 la kiter berperang dgn kehidupan kami! j0m! l0ls.

ella will never st0p saying this whenever we did a sh0t. "y0u lo0k really very fair ah tyra. g0sh! i guess y0u f0ll0w y0ur m0m's species. am i ryte?"(alamak. ter-jangkit phrase grace cheo0ng. only classmates n0es. l0ls).

n0. i did n0t f0ll0w my m0m. except siblings. im the only one wh0 have dad's species. dark.

and she g0es, "but y0u really have y0ur m0m's species. n0t dad." ok. im n0t sure myself. i d0nt judge myself y0u see.. ella g0t jeal0us ekh? haas. ok i n0e. and i d0nt mind y0u having my fair skin. l0ls. just kidding.

okays. i had the chance int0 taking my ugly picture in class just n0w. n0wadays, i feel to0 lazy wearing my lens t0 scho0l. seri0us shit. and i g0t s0meone says this t0 me, "d0 y0u n0e that i l0ve lo0king at girls wh0 w0re th0se specs? they lo0k just like avril lavigne t0 me.."

huh? really? im n0t sure myself. haha.

and sto0pid. i g0t fo0l by teacher sia just n0w.. and my friends laugh at me. aiy0y0..

teacher was giving out the CA papers. my hands were trembling hard and in fact, it g0t c0ld. i guess im afraid that i might flung in that papers as it was a fucking hard paper.

teacher : athirah..

me : (keep quiet.)

teacher : im very dissapp0inted in y0u.. why must y0u fail in this subject. why?

me : i dunn0 cher.. (in the verge of tears)

g0t back the paper and kept saying that im h0peless. im useless. n0t wanting t0 see the marks. but when my heart kept saying t0 lo0k at it, i turned over the paper and have a lo0k.. and guess what? i was terribly sh0cked and screamed,

me : CHER !!!!!!!! y0u LIED!!!!!

teacher : hahahaha! athirah. go0d j0b. keep it up.

oh my go0dness! h0w can y0u, cher..? my heart alm0st dr0p out.. haiy0! and jyeah. praise t0 GOD..

im SPEECHLESS.

2009-08-05T17:09:00.007+08:00

RE-EDITED. c0z i f0und my english sucks in this p0st.

okays. sista br0ught al0ng her b0yfriend int0 this beautiful crib, i mean my crib larr.. where else? l0ls. they were using the c0mputer t0 d0 s0me assignment. i had n0 ch0ice, but t0 b0rr0w dad's lapt0p which was n0w oredi bel0ng t0 sister. sheesh. :D

OMG. i had a bad habit and i cant seem t0 get rid of it. n0 matter h0w many times the alarms ann0yingly rings, i will just hit the sno0ze butt0n and d0zed off t0 sleep. still, my bed is much m0re c0mf0rtable than it sh0uld be.. AWWW..

-_- RANDOM.

i am feeling to0 tired f0r these freaking few days. alm0st everyday. these few days, i kept falling asleep in the bus. i cant explain h0w tired i am. i just need s0meone t0 message my back. im kept having th0se backaches sickness. damn. h0pe it will get better so0n.

n0wadays, i am quite surprise myself. im glad that i can stand up on my feet firmly with0ut the help of anyone else. i cant believe that i am getting much str0nger than bef0re.. and im n0 l0nger weak.

time brings new h0pes for us to m0ve on.
theres m0re to treasure as we g0 on..

thats the reas0n that i smiled. sheessh.. :D

allright. PHOTOS time.

inah with kim0n0 suit.

the guys were like, c0me lets have a sh0t with us. i was like wth. i lo0k very ugly and y0u all asked me t0 take pic with y0u guys? chi0w.. l0ls

SHOT 1.
fr0m left : izzat. afiq. zuraidi. nizzam. haikal.

SHOT 2.

ign0re my stupid ugly faces. i p0sted this picture c0z i really d0 miss these bunch of m0nkeys. i mean the GUYS. h0w can y0u all be g0ne? i hate it. the kec0h-ness in them were g0ne and my spirit of w0rking there began t0 fade away sl0wly. wth. it g0nna be a l0ng peri0d. it was a very l0ng st0ry and i shall n0t elab0rate m0re..

i admit that i only sh0w up once in a blue mo0n as i still g0t an0ther j0b and scho0l t0 handle. but still, y0u guys were n0t the one that i can easily f0rget. y0u guys were the best kec0hrable c0lleagues that i d0 appreciate very much.

n0w, the ones that i always lo0king f0rward t0 w0rk with, were n0t there anym0re and all i c0uld say is, i really d0 miss w0rking with all of them.. :'(

2009-08-04T14:14:00.003+08:00

Previ0us p0st : DELETED.

reas0ns? maybe my p0st is far way to0 em0 and i feel a lil' bit unc0mf0rtable talking ab0ut what had just happened. i admit that i still have th0se em0ti0nal r0ller c0aster in me. i just dunn0 which t0 feel. i feel that theres n0thing better in life. i swear that i g0tta hate this feeling.

" im just a lil' bit caught in the middle. life is a maze and l0ve is a riddle. i dunn0 where t0 g0 and i cant d0 it al0ne. " ahakz! the s0ng entitled: the sh0w by lenka.

last saturday, went t0 marina barrage with aideel as hitting the gym with BFF was cancelled due t0 s0me reas0ns. met aideel at plaza singapura and off we to0k bus 190. i swear i g0nna screw him f0r telling me t0 take that bus t0 marina barrage! guess what? that bus lead us t0 outram! wth. i t0t he kn0ws the way there!

luckily, i remembered of s0meone wh0 t0ld me t0 take train t0 marina bay and theres this shuttle bus that lead us t0 marina barrage. and when finally, we reached the place, i was like w0w.. the place was occupied with to0 many cr0wds. maklumlah baru langkah pertama jejak di situ. heehee..

the place is to0 windy.. very. usually, i was the one wh0 always been to0 n0isy, but instead i kept quiet f0r freaking l0ng h0urs. i just dunn0 where t0 start. and till i saw firew0rks!! it was beautiful and i c0uld just smile at the sight of heart and stars. and i finally SMILE.

after all these end, i did n0t went h0me.. but instead, went t0 catch a midnight m0vie at cathay. luckily, aideel is willingly t0 pay f0r my taxi fare heh.. or else i cant stay f0r the night.. heehee! thanks aideel! and yeah.. we watched the murderer. it was a great m0vie i c0uld say.. but the ending is n0nsense. seri0us. s0, if y0u peep asked me if y0u all c0uld watch it or n0t, all i c0uld say is, its all up t0 y0u.. ahakz! :)

i wanna feel h0w great it was being in LOVE again. wh0 d0esnt want t0, right? sheesh. :D

* i d0nt mind if he cant smile f0r me. as l0ng as i saw him smile, im c0ntent. :)